Lost Souls In School

Part - 10

I look at my wrist and see I have still 5 minutes of break time left so I go back to Amelia who by the way is looking worried. I know why she must be anxious, it is due to the fact that I have a very little control over my anger and have very little patience in many things. She must be thinking I would have had a fight or in the least argument with Xander but she doesn't know Xander calms me down. He is very easy to be with and has much more patience in comparison to me. This is the reason why he is very likable.

I walk up to her to let her know there wasn't any fighting between I handled the situation well and also I am willing to tell Xander what actually happened. She asks me whether or not I am sure to which I answer affirmatively.

We start our way upstairs when we hear bell ringing. As we enter our class I notice few of the boys looking at me and smiling a bit suggestively as if I am already in a relationship with Xander so I conclude he must have told them when he was sending me THE LETTER. I still feel heat rising in my cheeks as I remember that letter and also with the added attention to me from all the boys and few of the girls who are going to tease me to death because of this letter when they find out which I know everyone will as this type of news will spread like wildfire. I internally groan and cringe even by thinking about it.

I sit down at my bench and avoid looking at anyone. I take out my book and wait for the teacher as its almost time but notice Xander looking at me expectantly to which I answer him with look that says 'Have patience'.

Our English teacher comes and tells us which chapter we will be covering today which is pretty boring for me as I have already read it. So, I open my book start writing everything as I know I won't need to take notes for this lecture. I look up at mam from time to time, to make her think I am taking notes and not doing something but also covering my book in a way so that other people cannot read it.

After 5 minutes, I am able to pour everything out on the paper from how and what I found out to a bit what I feel up till date. I put my pen down in between the pages so that he doesn't have to ruffle through pages.

Looking around, I see nobody is going to notice what I am doing, I pass the book to Amelia who passes it to Jane which then reaches to Xander. He is sitting on the first bench, creating difficulty for him to read in front of mam but I know he will read it anyway.

After reading the whole thing, he starts writing something and waits for the chance to pass book. When mam turns other side, he passes the book back.

I start reading, I'm sorry to know what you had to go through alone. I just want you to know I am not pitying you, cause I know that will just make you hate me. I am there for you not only due to the fact I have feelings for you but because you genuinely are a good person and I want you to get out of this.

Also, when did this happen?

I am shocked to read this. He is soooo sweet and cute. I feel fluttering of butterflies and like someone is doing somersaults in my stomach. Now, the question is do I tell him this is the reason why I was feeling very dizzy and had to go to medical room. I decide I can and I should trust him.

I write, Remember, I almost passed out and feeling very dizzy. We had to go to medical room because of it. Well, I found this the day before that. I was awake whole night but didn't have breakfast. Also, the stress of the situation led me to medical room that day.

I pass the book again.

After a few minutes, I get the book.

Well, now I know why you weren't telling me. But can I tell you one thing? I notice he has very small handwriting in comparison to me.

Shrugging it off, I write, I can say the same thing. Also you know my answer is still 'no' regarding the letter. And yes.

Ok no comment on the first one. Secondly, I know that and I am not going to force you. I want to tell you that I have heard how you talk about your dad and I know how much he loves you, so just because you found out they didn't plan to have you at first doesn't have to change things, does it? Please think about it, this might be the only reason they wouldn't have told you, believing you will not understand their point of view

I know all that Xander and that is why I haven't told them I know as I also don't want to worry them and hurt them. I agree you are right. I just need time to cope with this. I already have sorted things out in my mind. I was just hurt that's all. Anyways, I don't want to talk about this anymore. As you know this topic is off limits.

Ok. By the way, thank for telling me proves you trust me. 

Xander! Don't push your luck. Also, stop passing the book as I am guessing Amelia is getting irritated.

After the whole 'conversation' with Xander I feel so much better as I won't have to lie to him anymore and everything goes back to normal. Nobody says a word even though many boys noticed our book passing. I guess they all must be thinking we will be talking about our relationship. Hehe. Let them think what they want. Right now I am in a mood of 'I don't care'.

Afterwards, the day passes as usual but it kept me thinking what will tomorrow when everyone has to be back in usual seating arrangements which meant Xander will be just beside with only an aisle between us. It makes me think how Xander is going to behave with me. He is not much of an egoistic person still I know I must have hurt his feelings. I only don't want awkwardness between us. I guess we will have to see what tomorrow brings.

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What do you think will happen now between Xander and Violet? How Xander behave towards her? Will he be cold and ignore or respect her wish?

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