Hatred // Muke

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'uhm what?', luke said shocked.

he wouldn't hesitate a millisecond when michael would've asked him this on any other moment, but not right now.

'do it luke. before I change my mind again', michael said and he closed his eyes.

'yeah', luke whispered and he leaned in, closing his eyes.

'but what about jack?', luke whispered against michael's lips. 'don't make me feel guilty', michael said.

and then luke slammed his lips against michael's and the only thing he could feel was fire and desire and love love love.

they had never felt something like this before. you know that feeling when you're on a roller coaster and you feel that kind of feeling in the pit of your stomach? well, that was what the two boys were feeling.

luke lifted michael up and michael wrapped his arms around luke's neck.

luke was working on michael's skin when michael suddenly pulled away.

'I shouldn't have said that luke', michael sighed and he held his face in his hands. 'yeah I know. but we all want to do stuff that we aren't allowed to', luke grinned and kissed michael again.

'don't leave marks that people can see', michael said. 'they need to see that you're mine', luke growled and bit in michael's neck what cause the red head to squeal and moan at the same time.

'stop', michael said when luke pushed michael rather roughly against the wall. just the way michael loved it.

'okay. I'll stop when you want me to', luke slowly took his hands off michael's body. 'this was a-', michael said but luke stopped him. 'don't say this was a mistake michael, because we both know that it wasn't. and no, I won't tell jack anything', luke sighed.

'thank you', michael said thankfully. 'no worries. I should go now', luke said and he gave michael a small hug and then left trough the front door.

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'I'm not doing our little game anymore calum', michael said him on the next day of school.

'c'mon michael don't be a chicken now!', calum said. 'I just don't want to do it anymore.'

'and why is that? you liked the plan a few days ago and now you're suddenly quitting', calum asked him confused. 'well... stuff happened', michael sighed.

at that moment jack showed up next to michael's locker and he smiled at him. 'hey baby how are you?', he smiled. 'I'm okay', michael fake smiled.

no, he wasn't okay at all to be honest. but saying okay is like saying 'hey I'm actually not fine at all but it'll be alright when I can figure my shitty life out'.

michael was thinking of luke again and his stupid pretty words and stupid pretty smile and stupid sexy lip ring and stupid voice and how perfect he was. but then there is jack who has only been sweet and caring and never hurt him. michael doesn't know what's wrong with him and his dumb feelings.

'hey you okay mikey?', calum asked and he waved his hand in front of michael's face. 'yeah sure', michael said and smiled at calum. apparently he had been daydreaming and he hoped that he hadn't said anything out loud.

'you want to eat some pizza tonight at my place?', jack winked. 'uhm well actually...', michael sighed. 'I can't', he said and looked at his shoes. 'oh okay', jack said obviously hurt. 'see you later then', and with those words he walked towards some other guys.

calum pulled on michael's arm and pushed him in the janitors closet. 'really calum, really?', michael laughed. 'no we're not going to kiss loser', calum rolled his eyes.

'what's wrong with you michael? and don't tell me that I'm okay bullshit because there's obviously something wrong', calum said. 'promise not to tell anyone cal', michael pleaded. 'yeah okay', calum said confused.

'luke apologised and you know, we kind of ended up kissing?', michael said awkwardly. 'you what?!', calum almost choked. 'yeah you know we k-i-s--', michael said slowly. 'I understood you the first time you idiot', calum said.

'you cheated', calum realised. 'yeah, and I don't know what to do anymore calum. jack is sweet and caring and luke is an asshole who's perfect in his own way. and you know, it's weird but it kind of turns me on that I don't know what I'm getting myself into'

'you're crazy michael. you need to break up with jack like right now', calum demanded. 'I don't know calum, what if luke suddenly changes his mind?', michael sighed.

'michael, jack is obviously your second choice. when luke doesn't want you you're just not going to break up with jack right? I thought you were better than this. I might think you're an actual slut right now', calum said to michael who just stood there with his mouth open like a fish.

'wow thank you calum. thanks for telling me everything that I cry for at night. and then my life was actually getting slightly better but guess what? it's not', he said and the tears were almost falling, but no, he told himself. he could be strong and he would never show his tears to anyone but himself. and he already broke that promise to himself more than once.

'I'm so sorry michael, but right now you need to decide because you'll hurt luke and jack. and you know, jack is a good guy and he is way better than that asshole of a luke hemmings. but I know, you can't resist luke's charm', calum sighed. 'I don't know what to do anymore', michael said hopeless. 'I know what you need to do', calum said and pulled michael out of the janitors closet.

jack was still standing there and michael knew what he had to do, but he didn't know if he wanted it that badly. luke was amazing yes, fireworks, sparks, blushing but there was still so much hate between them. and michael wasn't so sure if he could forgive luke every single thing, because that's what you do in a relationship. you trust someone with your whole heart. and jack is there when you have problems, never hesitating to help you.

'uhm jack', michael almost whispered. 'yes michael?', jack said cheerily when he heard his boyfriends voice. 'I need to tell you something.'

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