When love leads to betrayal...

I am a bastard...

Serkan sat on his couch, Sirius by his side, deep in thought. His memories had returned, every moment with Eda, the good and the not so good. He smiled as he thought even the not so good was better and more satisfying than anything else in his life. She crashed into his world, not trying to fit in or snag him. His world adjusted to her. He remembered seeing her for the first time and being speechless for a few moments due to being overwhelmed by her. She glared at him with pure hatred and he wanted nothing more than to erase that from her beautiful face. He stroked Sirius as he remembered the kiss, the epic kiss that took him by surprise but that he completely surrendered to without a second thought. He remembered fondly their longing looks and touches and how he desperately wanted her from the start. He remembered finding out that his father had been the cause of the death of her parents and how although he loved her more than anything he couldn't tell her so he let her go. With his eyes closed he saw her tear filled eyes begging him to be joking and to tell her he loved her, but he didn't, he put on his cold, robot mask and told her it was over that she was interfering with his work.
As he sat there all the memories just kept replaying in his mind as if to punish him for his cruelty of forgetting her and believing Selin. Ahh Selin what a bitch she was, telling him lie after lie, making him believe that Eda had come into his life to destroy him and his company. He acknowledged that he fell for it, hook,  line and sinker just as Selin knew he would. He recognized that he gave her a free pass from the beginning to take advantage of him because he thought she was his friend and that they were together. In thinking back he realized that Selin had become a manipulative bitch the moment that Eda came into the picture and that she had belittled Eda from the start and he did nothing about it. He had been hurting her and overlooking as others hurt her from the start. He saw what a selfish bastard he was and wondered how in the hell Eda had fell in love with him anyway.

He thought about his actions when he returned with Selin and how he had treated Eda immediately like she was nothing. He saw her hurt and pain and passed it off as pretense. He couldn't help but acknowledge that she was the most beautiful woman he had ever seen but remembered Selin told him how she used that to her advantage. He remembered Engin, Pyril his mother and everyone else in his life telling him that he was in love with Eda but he never even considered that Selin was lying to him. Thinking back now he realizes how stupid he was to believe her and not question her when everyone else was telling him something different but all the same thing.
He remembers his flashes of memories that he denied were real. How stupid can he be thinking back.

The highlight of all of this amnesia bullshit was falling for Eda all over again even if he didn't want to admit it and getting to make Selin suffer just as she made Eda suffer. He smirked as he recalled how he had dealt with Selin.
Selin, "yes askim" can you come to my office please I need to talk with you, "of course askim  I'll be right there." Selin walks in all smiles and kisses his cheek, he refrains from throwing up on the spot. He pats her hand and encourages her to have a seat. He is pacing back and forth, he sees Selin tense up, he knows she is aware that there is something wrong but she will never admit it or acknowledge it. He stops in front of her, stares her right in the eyes and says. " You are the cruelest, most heartless person I have ever met. You are a cold hearted bitch and I NEVER want to see you or hear your whiny voice again for as long as I live. Selin looks affronted and grasps her heart as her eyes bug out bigger than what that already are and she says " askim what in the world are you saying, we are together and plan to marry soon, why would you say this, you love me and I love you." Serkan laughs hysterically and says you are delusional Selin, I don't love you I never have. Hell I don't even like you I can't stand you. I sent you away before and I'm doing it again, this time for good. In case you still don't understand I REMEMBER IT ALL, I know what you did and why you did it. I know you lied to me and kept me away from everyone I loved so that you could manipulate my weak mind. I know I called you but that was no excuse for you to do what you did and I will never forgive you! I LOVE EDA, NOT YOU NEVER YOU!!  Eda has more heart and soul in her pinky fingernail than you could ever dream of having. She is and will always be my shining star and my world! You disgust me and you are to never enter this building ever again, you are never to contact me,my family or my friends ever again, do you understand? It's over!! I can't believe I ever trusted you as a friend. You have done everything to hurt and destroy Eda since the first day and I did nothing about it but that ends today. You will never look at her, speak to her or contact her in any form ever again! I am filling charges against you for everything you have ever done and I know that you have sabotaged Eda's work and that you informed the press about our contract and her parents accident. I hope you are locked away for life, in some dank, dark and dirty basement far away from here. I don't want to know what happens to you cause frankly, I don't care. You are dead to me and I should have said this a long time ago. Goodbye Selin!! And he walks away as Selin is screaming that she loves him and two police officers handcuff her and escort her out of the building.

Serkan knows that in all honesty he should leave Eda be and not even try to apologize and beg for forgiveness, cause he doesn't deserve it or her, but he can't let her go. He wants to go to her immediately but hesitates as he gives her time but little does he know that Eda has had enough and is gone....

Readers give me your thoughts, please?! I wanted Serkan to see his mistakes from the beginning and to make Selin pay.