When love leads to betrayal...

I let you down, but I'll lift you up if you'll let me

Serkan was speechless, he listened to every heartbreaking word Eda shouted at him. He felt every hit to his chest. He noticed every tear she cried and longed to wipe them away from her beautiful face but knew his touch would be unwelcomed. So he just stood still and let her vent. He actually felt her hurt and cringed at the mention of his interactions and "relationship" with Selin.
( Serkan's thoughts)
I had no idea how much pain and suffering Eda went through when I was missing. I knew she was sad but no one mentioned to me that she refused to eat or come out of her room. What does she mean she almost died? Why did no one tell me this? I know it is because I wouldn't have listened or cared at the time. I made sure that everyone knew that Serkan, the asshole workaholic was back and that talk of his past with Eda was unwelcomed and unwanted. I was grateful to my childhood friend for warning me beforehand about how Eda truly was and how she was hell- bent to destroy all that I worked for. I would not let that happen. I didn't listen to Engin, Pyril or my Anne, disregarding every word. Eventually they stopped trying. I noticed the glares towards Selin from my staff but ignored it and blamed it on Eda. And now that I think about it Eda is right I did hurt her intentionally. I hugged and kissed Selin in front of her to hurt her. I wanted her to leave so I could get my life back. It never occurred to me the true pain I was causing her or that I was stabbing her heart over and over again with pain.
I stand here dumbfounded and think back to the early days if our relationship and how Eda was never comfortable with Selin and how Selin always belittled her and implied that she wasn't good enough for me or the company. And Eda was right, I ignored it and Eda and Selin took that as my intentions towards her. Which was never even an option, I never loved her nor wanted a life with her. But my actions gave her hope and made Eda feel hopeless. I didn't consider Eda's feelings. I was never that person so I didn't think to do it so I unknowingly pushed Eda behind Selin and Selin took advantage of that and made sure Eda knew our history and how she would always be in my life. Where the duck was I when all this was happening, when my Eda's light was dimming? I was focused on work as usual.
I thought finding out that my dad had caused Eda's parents death was the worst thing that could have happened to us. I one again chickened out and instead of being honest I broke her heart right after pleading with her to give it to me because she had mine. Eda is right me and everyone associated with me has hurt her over and over again. To be honest we all looked down at her at first, I mean we were successful architects and she was a student. But we were all pleasantly surprised by her enthusiasm and true talent. We were lucky to have her at Artlife. I was beyond blessed to love her and to be loved by her in return. It was only after breaking up with her because of my cowardness and seeing her strength that I realized that I desperately wanted and needed her in my life. That my heart didn't feel right without her next to me. I voted to win her back and tell her the truth about her parents but that BITCH SELIN took that away from me and hurt my Eda on purpose, feigning concern for me and the company. At this point I saw her for the kind of person she truly was and Eda knew all alone and made her leave.
I apologized to Eda for not being honest with her and explained my reason for breaking up with her, not because I wanted to but because I didn't want her to be hurt with reminders of her parents every time she looked at me. With time things slowly were getting better, we were spending time together. I never hesitated to tell her how I felt about her. I wasn't going to push her aside this time for anyone she was the most important person in my life. We finally got to the point of being together again. We were close and talked about anything and everything, which is not something I had ever been able to do, but found bit easy with Eda. We spent all our time together and became intimate. The best night of my life without doubt. We shared our feelings and neither shied away from it. I knew that she was the ONE for me so I planned my proposal. She said YES and we began to plan. I had never been happier. It was the weekend of our wedding, I was drinking champagne and sitting in a large bath just reflecting on how beautiful our life would be when an angel disrobed and joined me in the bath. That was an unforgettable experience! Our wedding day was here, I was not nervous I was eager and ready to marry the love of my life. Engin came in and told me that some papers needed to be signed in Italy immediately so we could secure the project. I could fly there in the company jet and be back in time for the wedding. I went to inform and explain to Eda. She was standing there in her wedding robe looking stunningly beautiful in her tiara with the word BRIDE on it. I couldn't wait to day "I do". She wasn't happy about it and I assured her that nothing would keep me from marrying her, I told her that "if I come back 100 times, 100 times I would fall in love with you." I kissed her passionately and told her I would see her in a few hours. Little did I know that it would be the worst day of both of our lives. I made it to Italy and was on my way back to Eda. My thoughts were on her and our future, home, travel and kids. The pilot announced that their was engine failure and to prepare for impact. I questioned God as to why after all that we had been through to get to our wedding day why he would have me to die before we could be married. Then I thought,  Serkan you are the one who chose to do business on your wedding day after all, and put work before what was to be the happiest day of your life. I cursed my own stupidity and pleaded with God to let me survive and get back to Eda. I thought about what my death would do to her and cried big crocodile tears for her suffering because of me once again. My last thought was "Eda I love you and if possible I will come back to you, I will fight til my last breath to get to you." The plane crashed I felt tremendous pain in my side and head and then blackness. I woke up in a hospital room and I couldn't remember what had happened to me. My last thought was how to fix the mess with Kan and the stolen designs that Eda had given him. I called Selin as my friend, the one Eda agreed to help me get back and my PR person for her help. She immediately flew to me to help. I had no memory or idea that her "help" would destroy my life. She stayed with me in a cabin in the woods as I recovered from my injuries. She informed me about all of Eda's manipulative actions in order to avenge her parent's death. Selin kept close to me, wearing clothes that left little bro the imagination. I remembered her having an odd sense of style but not trying not be sexy. I didn't feel sexually attracted to her but I never really did I mean she was a beautiful woman but that's it. I knew we were together kind of so when she leaned in to kiss me I kissed her back. We kissed for only a few moments and I backed away. It didn't feel right to me but I thought it was due to the accident and my forgotten memories. Selin didn't seem to mind. We made a plan to go back to Istanbul and to get rid of Eda after sorting through and trying bro fix all the mess she had created with my company.
We arrived back in front of ArtLife, I felt an immediate sense of relief to be back. Selin intertwined our hand and kissed my cheek and we walked in. I didn't expect everyone to be diligently working just as before. I was prepared for the company to be in ruins but it didn't appear to be. Suddenly all work stopped and all eyes were on Selin and I, more importantly our intertwined hands. I admittedly felt uncomfortable. Engin and Pyril were the first to approach us. They were in tears and hugged me tightly, what the hell? I didn't hug. I also noticed that they were both wearing wedding bands so I questioned who and where their spouses where. They laughed and I guess assumed I was joking. I explained to them that I had no memory of the past year so I didn't remember their spouses names. Engin informed me that he and Pyril were married to one another. To say I was shocked would be an understatement. Pyril looked at Selin and asked her what she was doing back in ArtLife since she left months ago for Denmark. I looked at Selin with a quest in my eyes, she cringed a little but being the manipulator and PR person she was quickly came up with an excuse. I just didn't realize it at the time. As we all recovered, suddenly my heart started racing and I let go of Selin's hand to grasp my chest. Then she walked down the stairs, Eda. Tears streaming down her face. She was beautiful no doubt about it that I remembered but I recalled Selin's words about revenge and manipulation and I thought how real her tears and look of love appeared and how she must be a good actress. She glanced at Selin standing next to me, and Selin grabbed my hand and laid her head on my shoulder. Instantly I flushed almost as if I was appalled by her touch. But where did that come from? I shook those feelings away and looked at Eda. She was a few inches from my face, she reached up to touch my face and ran her hands across my beard. It felt calming but I wouldn't admit that to myself or anyone else. I removed her hands from my face and declared "well Ms. Eda I am back now and I will not allow you any more free reign in my company. You will not destroy everything that I have worked for, I forbid it so whatever plans you have they end now.
I walked away to my office with Selin in tow, I didn't see the smirk Selin gave Eda in doing so.  I sat at my desk and noticed pictures of Eda and I all over the room. We looked happy and in love, but I knew it wasn't real. Selin had left to give me space and Eda walked in and my heart did that rapid beating thing again. Eda just kept staring at me without a word. After several uncomfortable silent minutes she said Serkan what the hell is going on, the last time I saw you was on our wedding day. I haven't heard a word from you in two months and today you return with that snake Selin." I immediately told Eda that I had no memory of the last year, including our so called love and marriage. I told her that she agreed to pretend to be engaged to me to break Selin and Ferit up so I could win her back. I told her my plane crashed, I woke up and called Selin and she had filled me in on the last year. I glared at Eda and reiterated that I knew all that she had done and the reason for it. Eda laughed and said "oh I bet she told you alright. Did she tell you that she no longer worked here or even lived in Istanbul any longer. " ( No she hadn't but Eda didn't need to know that). Eda came closer to me, ( heartbeat increased) and grabbed the pictures of us and talked about all of our memories; she talked about our history and how our love had conquered all. I shook my head and looked at her and said "I don't remember that man, he is not me, and I don't want to remember him. This is me now and you and I may have a history which I am doubtful of but we have no future." Eda had tears in her eyes, grabbed her bag and ran out of the office. Thinking back, my heart and breath faltered at the sight of her tears and I stopped myself from running after her. I focused on my work and everything that had occured while I was recovering. Honestly things were not bad at all, in fact projects were done precisely how I would have done them. It left me confused, why would Eda do things bro make the company a success if she was hell bent on destroying it.