When love leads to betrayal...

Devastation

Serkan was ready to get on his hands and knees and beg Eda to forgive him. He was ready to apologize every second of every day if that's what she wanted; he knew she deserved that plus so much more. He got dressed, played with Sirius and left to head to Eda's house to face her. He was prepared for whatever she threw at him, her anger, her tears, her heartbreak, her anguish, whatever she felt he was ready to help her heal and to do whatever to heal them and reclaim their love. He wanted to firstly apologize for always letting Selin by with all her tricks and jabs, he honestly didn't even recognize at the time how it must have looked to Eda, like he would always defend Selin and keep her close, never accusing her as he did Eda. He honestly didn't give Selin that much thought but looking back it seems he always put her first.

He was going to make sure Eda understood that Selin had never meant anything close to what she meant to him and that she would always be first for him. But how he would do that he wasn't sure because when she needed him the most he turned to Selin. He can't imagine if the tables were turned and Eda had done all the things that he had, he would have to quit and disappeared. If Eda had lost all memories of him and their love and had been with her ex, Cenk or whoever, and shoved it in his face like he did he would have blown a gasket and punched someone. Eda wasn't like that though, although now he wishes she was, she should have beat his ass. He knows Eda and she sat there and suffered in silence just to be close to him. He hit the steering wheel repeatedly and cursed his own selfishness and stupidity over and over again. 
He parked in front of Eda's house. The lights were on so he knew she was there, what was she doing? What was she thinking? Would she ever forgive him? Did she hate him? All these questions were running through his brain with every step he took. He knocked on the door, no one came so he knocked again a little louder. He heard someone unlocking the door and it slowly opened. He raised his head and squinted expecting to see Eda's beautiful face appear at the opening but he saw Ayfer instead with tears rolling down her cheeks. He knew something was wrong and his sudden, rapid heartbeat led him to believe that it was about Eda. Ayfer glared at him and tried to slam the door but he stopped it with his hand. He asked her if she was okay and what was wrong, if Eda was okay? Ayfer laughed and said "you are joking right? Since when do you give a shit about Eda and how she feels? You have done nothing but hurt her and destroy her for weeks and to be honest since she first met you. You are not welcome here and definitely not welcome to ask questions about Eda. Have you come to hurt her more? To tell her she's nothing to you, to rub Selin in her face? I don't think so Serkan not anymore. You have destroyed my beautiful flower, you caused her to wilt and die so there was nothing left. She has done nothing but love you and she willingly gave up everything she ever dreamed to stay with you and did or do you even appreciate her for that. Let me tell you the answer, no you did not, you expect everyone to do what you want no matter the cost to themselves. You are selfish, Serkan and my Eda paid the ultimate price. She loved you, hell you were getting married but selfish Serkan had to leave for work on his wedding day and never returned. Do you know she cried and didn't leave your apartment for weeks, no food, no contact with anyone for weeks while she grieved and waited for you. She never once felt that you were gone she knew you would come back to her. Oh you came back alright, you came back being a prick and with that snake Selin. You know she had tried to hurt Eda from the very start, always belittling her and making her feel like she is less than all of you. You came back with her and did everything in your power to hurt Eda. Your words, your looks, and most definitely your actions. So you have no right to come her and ask about her after what you have done. You have never put her feelings first or considered how things effected her, you never asked you just kept being your robot self. Well she had enough of you and your selfishness Serkan for good, she's gone and plans to never return. YOU BROKE HER!! DOES THAT MAKE YOU HAPPY? TO HURT SOMEONE SO BADLY THAT SHE LEFT EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING THAT SHE HAS EVER LOVED JUST TO GET AWAY FROM YOU? If it makes you happy then I guess you got your wish, live your life as a selfish man with your selfish Selin and don't ever think about my Eda again. You do what you do best, think if yourself and what you want and don't worry about anyone else. She told us goodbye earlier today and left a while ago. I will not tell you where she is but know this Serkan she loved you but she will move on and forget you and the heartbreak you caused her. My Eda deserves more love than you can even imagine to give her and she will have it. She will find the right man for her, the one who puts her first and makes sure that her happiness is before his own. He will listen to what she says and pay attention to her feelings and will not let others hurt her. She will get married and have the family she always dreamed of and you know what you will never know it!! You will never see the light in her eyes as they shine with love and wonder at the beauty of her children. You lost all that when you disregarded her and her feelings. So for the last time I want you to leave this place and never return, GOODBYE!!" and she slams the door.

Serkan falls to the ground, sobbing uncontrollably. Screaming "No Eda please, I am so sorry. I love you !!!! I hate myself so much for hurting you, PLEASE!!!