He's into a Fangirl (MAJOR EDITING)

Chapter 10

Lory's Point of View

Heeseung and I were both sitting on the backseat of the car when our driver maneuvered its way to Manila bay. It was the nearest place that we could go to especially at this hour. It's almost 1 am at sinadya talaga naming lumabas ng ganitong oras to avoid attention from people.

Heeseung was wearing casual clothes matched with slippers and a facemask. However, his physique and beauty still has its way to get the attention of anyone because it screams the celebrity vibe which he carries all the time.

"Lory come here" he gestured me to come over. He was pointing somewhere, so I leaned forward and peeked outside the open window of the car.

"I just think you'll like it." he said as we both watched the citylights and the pretty night sky filled with stars.

I was feeling the cool wind as it gently caresses my skin when I heard Heeseung muffled a sneeze.

Sa sobrang hangin, tumatama na pala sakanya yung buhok ko pero hindi man lang siya nagsasalita. "Sorry" I chuckled, but what caught me off-guard is when he gathered the strands of my hair and tied it using his hanky.

"Thanks." I smiled saka ko bumalik sa pagkakaupo ng maayos. I guess I was too comfortable na nakalimutan ko ng masyado kaming malapit sa isa't-isa.

We left the driver in the car as we enjoyed the beautiful scenery while walking along side eachother. It would be really nice kung naisama ko silang lahat. I bet the maknaes would really enjoy this place knowing that they love to go out for a walk every now and then.

Bigla ring pumasok sa isip ko si Jay, I stil didn't have the time to talk to him kahit gustong-gusto ko na siyang tanungin kung ano bang problema, pero hindi ako makakuha ng tamang tiyempo.

Funny, because in everything I do, laging nagkakaroon ng pagkakataon para maisip ko siya.

"Lory" I snapped out in my own thoughts when Heeseung called me.

"Hmm"

"I'm about to tell you something, but promise me nothing will change." he said, while he was looking at me as if I was the only one he could see.

Biglang bumigat yung dibdib ko, parang hindi ako makahinga sa mga titig niya. I already have a clue kung saan to papunta, dahil nagawa ko ring magisip-isip dahil sa sinabi niya sa hotel pa lang kanina. Assuming things wasn't part of my personality, so I refused to believe all the signs that he's giving me, but I wasn't completely naive either. May pakiramdam naman ako.

And he was such a nice person. Very nice, that he's too good for me.

I was confused most of the time, but God knows that my heart already beats for another person. Oo nakaramdam ako dati ng kilig sa mga actions niya,because who wouldn't?...but that's it.

At ngayon natatakot ako kasi ayoko siyang saktan.

Pero hindi tamang magpaasa ng tao. Mahirap pero habang maaga pa lang, dapat ng putulin.

Because putting one person's hopes up is never okay.

At kung naparamdam ko man yun sakanya...pasensiya na.

"I like you" he leaned his forehead on my shoulders. "so much"

"Simula pa lang nung fanmeeting gusto na kita. That was the first time that I saw you. I even got the usb that you were suppose to give us." tuloy-tuloy niyang sambit, while we remained in that position. Napaawang ang labi ko. So matagal niya na kong kilala at naaalala niya ko. I was just an ordinary fan so I never thought that he'd be able to recognize me. Now this explains why that eagle keychain is with Jungwon. Saakin pala talaga yun galing. Nakuha pala niya.

"Pinakinggan mo ba?" mahinang tanong ko, ramdam ko na pareho kaming parang kinakapos ng hininga.

"Yes" he answered, "you have a beautiful voice."

"so alam mong gusto ko siya?" mariin kong pinikit ang mga mata ko. As much as I hate to see him in pain,wala ng ibang daan.

"Alam ko..."

"Pero bakit tinuloy mo pa rin?"

"It's because I didn't like you, just because I want you to like me back. Gusto kita kasi yun yung nararamdaman ko Lory" his voice started to shake "Wag mo naman akong pigilan na gustuhin ka" diretso na siyang tumingin sakin, gusto ko na lang pumikit dahil kitang-kita ko kung pano nagsimulang mamuo ang mga luha sa gilid ng mata niya.

"I like you so much." he said once again. " I like you that I even wrote a song for you. I like you that I took the risk kahit simula pa lang alam kong talo na...but please don't feel responsible for it, kasi desisyon ko naman to. This is my choice. At kung Ibabalik ako sa araw na yon...kung saan una kitang nakita. Pipiliin ko pa rin na gustuhin ka."now tears were falling down to his face.

Naramdaman ko na lang rin ang sunod-sunod na pagpatak ng luha ko.

How can a person like me this genuinely? Both of us doesn't deserve this. He doesn't deserve to be in pain, while I felt like I don't deserve to be loved.

"Do you remember the song that I made you listen to?"

Tumango ako habang sabay kaming lumuluha.

"I wrote that thinking of the chances that you might give me" he paused and wiped his own tears. "Kasi akala ko lahat ng bagay pwedeng makuha basta pinaghihirapan...pero hindi pala."

Lumapit siya sakin at siya naman ang nagpunas ng mga luha ko. "kasi kung hindi para sayo, hindi pala talaga." he smiled sadly.

"I-I'm sorry..." I sobbed.

"Sshh..don't be" he said as he cupped my face.

"I'm glad that I was able to express how I feel, and if he ever hurts you. Although, I think he wouldn't. Andito lang ako. I'll always be here to look over you, because I am your number one fan Lory. I am and will always be."

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A/N: so it took me days before updating kasi nahirapan talaga kong isulat 'to😅I hope nagustuhan niyo