10 days with you | y. jungwon

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[Y/N's POV]

i woke up and grabbed my phone to see if i have any notifications to check.

1 new message from: jungwon ^_^

WHAT?

my eyes widened and i immediately pressed the notification.

jungwon ^_^:
hi y/n, i'll be making a message for you to read and i hope you'll take the time to read this.

1st of all, i'm sorry. i didn't realize you were in so much pain. i was being selfish. i was being petty and mean. i was rude to you. i wasn't thinking straight. i'd apologize even if i have to a thousand times just so you would forgive me. again, i'm sorry. i never wanted to hurt you. i let my emotions take over me and i didn't know how to act. i'm sorry for shouting hurtful words to you that night. i was just pissed. again, im sorry.

2nd, i'll explain everything. i hope you'll understand this. i got jealous over the fact that you were hanging out with eric often. i saw you with him last time when i wasn't able to go home with you and i acted cold towards you. that night, i apologized to you after feeling guilty but removed it after because i thought that you'd find me annoying, all bcos i got mad over that, so all i said was sweet dreams to let you know i wasn't mad at you because i know how you overthink alot.

then the next day i saw you hanging out with eric and i got jealous again. before i go any further, i'm so sorry y/n. i let my emotions take over me and decided to be cold towards you again. i got even more pissed when you seemed okay with me hanging out with other people. 'do you not care about me?' was what i kept thinking about. but i realized, its so stupid. i'm so stupid. not everything is about you and me. i realized that its okay to hang out with other people. i was just being selfish. i was also scared of the fact that you'd stop liking me and you'd like eric instead. i'm new to this whole liking someone thing and i was too dumb to realize that what i was doing is wrong.

3rd, if u don't forgive me yet, that's fine. i understand, take your time. i hope something like this won't happen again. i never wanted to hurt you in anyway. if you're wondering, i still like you. so much. more than you could ever know. if you don't like me anymore, that's pretty understandable.

lastly, i hope you're sleeping well. i'm coming over for our project sooner or later, but this time, i won't hold any more grudges.

sweet dreams, y/n.
sent at 3:47am.

i was crying.

i'm so glad he finally explained everything.

i couldn't bring myself to text him back or atleast let him know that i read his message.

i was too overwhelmed.

-

i heard a knock on my door.

i ran to the door, hoping it was him.

as soon as i opened it, i was stunned.

it's him.

he had a small smile on his face.

... but his eyes had a hint of sadness.

"jungwon."

he didn't waste any second and immediately hugged me.

he was quietly sobbing.

"y/n, i'm sorry. i'm so sorry. i hate myself. i-"

i rubbed circles around his back.

"it's okay. don't say that. everything's okay now."

he shook his head.

"i hurt you, y/n. i was being so stupid."

i leaned my head on his shoulder.

"that doesn't matter. you apologize and i forgive."

"i want to apologize a thousand times to you."

"and i'm here to forgive you a thousand more."

he slowly calmed down and let go of me.

i smiled at him.

"you're a pretty crier."

he looked away, flustered.

"i brought p-pancakes for us."

"that's new."

"to repay you for the pancakes you made. the pancakes i was unable to eat last time."

he placed the container on the dining table and showed me the pancakes he made, smiling.

it's the little things about him that i love.

"go eat some. i made them with my mom."

"sure. after this, we'll work on our project." i suggested.

"ah, right."

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omg this book is coming to an end soon naurr :((

i also made this chapter while listening to olivia rodrigo's new album, have u listened to it?

id like to thank everyone again for all the support.

i love each n every one of you, don't forget to take care of yourself :D