Thea May is an innocent 16 year old who goes to a private boarding school where she's bullied and humiliated. She's struggles with food and feels she'll be alone forever. That is until she's forced to live at school, where she becomes close to him...
I hate night time. It's the time I feel most alone. It allows me too much time to think. I'm currently standing in front of my mirror, analysing and hating every inch of my body. I watch my reflection as I take off my pj's, leaving me in my underwear. Looking way to intensely at all my curves and imperfections, I just can't believe I look like this.
I'm angry with myself, with my looks. No wonder no one wants to be around me, their all too embarrassed to be seen with someone like me. I don't blame them
I sigh as I begin to redress myself and exit my room. I walk to the kitchen and then come back into my room a few minutes later. My hands and pockets are filled with food and snacks. This is what I like to call, good old comfort food. And the way I see it. The more food the better.
I lay out all the food on my floor in front of my mirror and sit there as I eat my heart out. I frown as I stare back at my reflection, knowing all this food I'm consuming isn't going to help me feel better about myself for long. Regardless, I continue to stuff my face anyways.
After consuming way too much food I'm instantly tired exhausted by how much food I consumed in such a short period of time. With a full stomach I crawl into bed and fall asleep. This has been my nightly routine for a while now, and it never fails to tire me out.
The next morning I'm woken by the sun shining on my face through my window. I grown, not wanting to believe it's morning already. I have school today
I reluctantly peal myself out of bed and force myself to get up to get ready for the day. I dance around the many empty wrappers and crumbs from last night feast as I get ready.
For some reason I feel uneasy getting ready this morning. Like someone was watching me or something. I know it's just me being silly but I decided to take precautions just in case.
I did my best not to expose my body at any point during changing. This definitely made it a little more difficult to get changed. I shimmied my school skirt up over my pj shorts before sliding my shorts off once my skirt was over the top.
I really wish I had blinds in my room to prevent mornings like this. Mum keeps saying she'll buy some but somehow something more important always comes up.
I'm not silly. I know no one can actually see me but sometimes I just get the feeling that I'm being watched. I think i'm watching too many crime documentaries.
Thea's school uniform:
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After changing into my incredibly uncomfortable uniform I finished getting myself ready, not bothering to put much effort into my appearance. It's not like i'm trying to impress anyone. I don't exactly have anyone who would notice if I didn't look my best.
I walked out of my room an entered the kitchen to grab an apple and sandwich for school and shoved it in my bag. I slung my bag over my shoulder and made sure to lock the house on my way out.
