Dating My bully

~Binge~{24}

My shift at work this afternoon has been a little awkward. I feel slightly uncomfortable around Leo after what happened the other night. 

I'm embarrassed and ashamed that I freaked out at dinner so much. I'm a bad friend. 

We didn't really talk much during the shift I just kept my head down and washed dishes. Towards the end of my shift, I took a cucumber sushi roll from the front and stared at it. Leo said I was allowed to take whatever food I wanted but I hadn't ever done it before. 

I looked down at the rolled-up rice in front of me. 

It looked so delicious but disgusting at the same time. 

On one hand, my insides were screaming to eat it begging me to put it in my mouth. But on the other hand, I didn't want to go against the way I had been eating the past few weeks. If I could just eat a little it would mean I'm ok. If I just eat a little then I might be able to go out to dinner with Leo.

I took a small bite and before I knew it I was almost finished with the roll of sushi. I looked down at what little of it was less.

One sushi roll never hurt anyone right? I can eat the rest and be fine. I put the last of it in my mouth and it was gone. I ate the whole thing. 

I couldn't stop thinking about how good it tasted. I ignored the feelings of disgust and focused on how amazing it tasted. I wanted to grab another one but I can't be seen by Leo grabbing seconds. 

Instead, I'll drop by the supermarket on my way home and buy some fruit to eat. I don't want to get too carried away with eating but some fruit would be so good right now.

I spent the last 10 minutes of my shift thinking about the food I was going to get after work. I know I shouldn't eat more but this is just a one-time thing.

I can stop eating whenever I want.

The 10 minutes went by fast and before I knew it it had ended. I clocked out and hung up my apron.

"Bye Leo. See you Saturday" I called out just as I was about to open the back door to leave. 

"Hold up," Leo said slightly jogging over to me.

"I uh just wanted to make sure you were ok after the other night," he said scratching the back of his head.

"I'm fine," I said smiling as convincingly as possible. As much as I adore Leo I didn't want to have this conversation with him right now. I want to go get my food. 

"Are you sure, because you seemed pretty upset? I don't want to pry but I care about you and I want you to know if there's anything I can do to help, I will" he said

"Thanks, Leo that's sweet of you, really. But I'm fine. You don't need to worry about me"

"Alright well, if you ever change your mind, I'm here for you" he put his hand on my shoulder and gave me a sad smile.

I smiled back but I felt uncomfortable with his hand there. It reminded me of how Mr Clark would touch me. I squirmed a little and Leo must have noticed me because he took him and off me.

"Sorry," he said putting his hands behind his back.

"Goodnight Leo," I said reopening the back door and walking out.

I don't mean to sound full of myself but everyone keeps touching me and talking to me. I've never had this much attention in my life. Before my mum left no one even looked at me.

Now my dad's reaching out, kind of, Seth decided to be nice to me, Mr Clark was too nice to me and Leo wants to be my friend. Why do people want to talk to me now? Why haven't they wanted to before my mum left?