Two Sides -Taekook (KookV)

12- Friends

Pov. Taehyung

He stares at me so confused I want to punch him. How can he be such a dick?! My worst side comes up and I'm sure I could shoot lasers through my eyes if I tried.

- Did I say something wrong, Tae? I didn't mean t-

- Fuck you. I'm not a toy for you to play with, Jungkook. I might look like I'm made out of stone but you don't need to test me like this. I never thought you would go this fucking far.

- But I-

- Get the fuck out of my sight. I don't ever want to see you again. Shit, you probably don't even understand what I'm feeling, do you?

- I...N-Not really but if you expla-

- I'm not surprised. I'm never surprised when people don't get me. But you make me so fucking disappointed.

I don't think I can say another word before getting to hard insults and a lot of tears. So before crying in front of him, I get out of there. I walk past him even if he tries to stop me and I don't look back. The pain on my chest is getting heavier and heavier.  I don't ever want to see him again. I don't want to feel this way again. Not with him. Not with anyone. I was fine before I fell in love. Why was I stupid enough to think something like this could work out for me?

I need to let my tears flow before going home. A part of me wants to go back and scream at him at his face. But then another part of me...God, I hate it. I feel so guilty. Because I know it's not completely his fault. I know he would never suspect I have those feelings for him. Of course not. Why would they think someone like me loves anyone? I'm someone people fear and treat like a threat. I've never been straight forward about what I feel. I can't remember last time I said anything sweet to anyone.

For some reason I had the hope Jungkook would understand. Maybe he could see through all of this, he could see the whole me and not just a tiny part. But who am I kidding? That's never gonna happen. Hell, if I even dared to confess my love for him he would probably reject me. He only likes friends with benefits. He always did. Why would that change? What made me think I would be an exception to the rule? I'm a complete fucking idiot, falling for playboy expecting to conquer him.

Feeling absolutely broken, I go back home. In there, I go find Jimin. If there's one person that will be for me through anything, it's him. He's in his room, sitting on the bed looking like an emotional mess. He's been like this since the crash so I can't blame him. I sit by his side and sigh.

- Shitty day, Jiminie?

- I almost fucked Daegu's King in the middle of a park

- Holy shit, that sounds like the opposite of a bad day!

- Unless you count how Min Yoongi kept appearing in my head. I ended up crying with the dude comforting me

- Oh...Well, at least you had someone to hug you there

- What do you mean? What's with your sad face? That's not common...

When I start to tell him about it I'm trying to make it fun. Like an anecdote. Pretending like it doesn't affect me. But at this point it's impossible to do it without spilling a few tears. As soon as my voice gets shaky, he hugs me tight and we end up cuddling in his bed.

- I'm s-such an idiot

- No, TaeTae don't say that. Should I ask Namjoon if he still talks to his hitman friends? Maybe we can get rid of Jeon for a few dollars

- I don't w-want him dead, I want h-him with me...

- Oh baby...Now you know how I feel when you threaten Yoonie!

- ...I don't regret it

His laugh makes me smile for a second. At least I have him in this world. And I should get used to the fact that he's the only person that will ever stay by my side.

- Tae honey, you're not the problem here. I can promise you that. You're a lovely guy, the way you show your care might be strange but it's what makes you special! You're precious inside and out, I can promise you that. If I could, I would fall in love immediately with you!

- That would make things easier...

- Why don't you tell him how you feel? In a clear way since he seems to have only two working braincells. I'm sure if you do that things will go back on track. You just have to be honest!

- Look at you talking about honesty. You still haven't talked to Min about your life

- Hey, I give advice for you to take it and for me to disobey. Remember I'm a proud brat hahaha

We chuckle knowing full well neither of us likes showing our dark sides to anyone. Even if this is a horrible day, I can rest in his arms. My life is only kept together thanks to those who love me. And I know Jungkook is not and never will be one of them.

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Hi babes~ My VMin heart enjoys writing them as besties. I hope you like this pair of soulmates.

See you tomorrow for Jungkook trying to figure out what the fuck happened.

- Baby Y