Two Sides -Taekook (KookV)

14- Move on

Pov. Taehyung

I was about to explode when I sent Jungkook to look for Jimin. I couldn't keep hearing how dumb his guesses are. He thinks I felt forced? How?! Why?! Is it really that hard for him to think that I want something else with him? Is he an idiot or am I really that terrible expressing myself?! I was starting to think both those thing were truth and I had no idea what to do with that. I didn't want him to think he pressured me in any way but I also don't know how could I ever be honest about what goes through my heart whenever we're near.

All of those thoughts left my body as the minutes went by. Because something more important was happening. Jimin wasn't coming. It's weird for him to leave without telling me first and he was in a great mood just a few minutes earlier since apparently Min Yoongi asked him out or something. Desperate, I looked for him everywhere. I called him around forty times until I thought about calling Jungkook but neither of them were answering. I was a second away from asking Namjoon to use his old bad influences to find him, when my phone rang.

Turns out both Jungkook and Jimin went back to my house. I hang up the phone now that I can relax a little and I drive away to go check on my best friend. When I arrive, Kook tries to catch me up a little. Apparently Yoongi broke his heart for the hundredth time and he's crying in his room. I start to go upstairs but I stop myself to look down on Kook. He looks serious. Like he's waiting for me to say something else. Unlike me, his frown can be very expressive and I can tell the distance I took is bothering him.

- Jeon

- Hmm?

- I need to check on my little soulmate now but...just so you know, I never felt forced to do that with you. I loved every second of that night and I'll remember it forever

- O-Oh, that much? Then what's the prob-

- I just...I rather not doing that again, okay? I'm not like your other friends. I don't like those things so...if it's okay with you, I'd rather for us to just be...what we were before

- I see... That's okay! If that's what you want

I don't know why he sounds a little dissapointed. But his smile is genuine and that helps me relax. Of course, he can't keep his mouth shut for long

- I wasn't that bad, was I? You know, just wondering...

- Hahaha oh, Jeon...you were perfect

Maybe busting up his self esteem is the last thing this guy needs. But I must be sensitive because I'm not controlling some of the words that come out of me. Through the night, I see how amazing he looks when he's not tense. It's like I lifted a huge weight out of his shoulders. Was he really that worried about us? A part of me wants to get hopeful but I don't allow it. I've already been thinking about this. It's time to move on.

Jimin doesn't fall asleep until hours later and I'm a little tired to stay up myself. When I go to bed I realize Jungkook threw a blanket on the floor to sleep there.

- Isn't that a little over the top, Jeon? I said we shouldn't fuck, it doesn't mean you have to be like a dog

- I rather break my back sleeping here than making you uncomfortable again. You don't know what this past few days have been like...

- Missed me that much, hu? That's shocking

- Why would it be shocking?

- You know...because it's you! Nothing's ever that serious to you. You're always playing around and laughing. I've never seen you miss anyone

- In my defense no one ever ghosted me.

- Ouch. Sorry about that. I just...You don't know how pissed off I've been these days.

- It was hard not to tell. You looked stressed

Those words are enough to leave me speechless. He realized? Everyone's been treating me the same way as always. They all think I look equally annoyed every single night. Once more I have to push this feeling of finally being noticed aside. God damnit... moving on is not gonna be easy if he keeps being this way...

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Hi babes! Sorry I fell behind for a bit! Here's more of TaeTae and tomorrow I'll try to bring the next one!

See you~

- Baby Y