It's Just You and Me, Okay?

Chapter 7

     After the conversation with my boss, he let me have the rest of the week off to figure out a plan, which I have yet to come up with. I mean I dont want to leave the only actual place Ive known my entire life, but I am not safe here anymore...one way or another, I dont think the police can help me at this point so what would be the point?

    How could I even be of help to them? I mean they were right, I had no family left, everything had been taken from me and right now I just felt...miserable and completely alone at this point, all I wanted was my brother. He would know what to do, he was the only person who was ever truly there for me, he understood me, loved me, accepted me for who I am, and who I was ought to become. Other than Marie of course, but it's different.

    Three days have passed, I still havent left my apartment, and I was slowly running out of food. I still havent decided what to do but I might have to make the risky decision, and that definitely wont be easy. I didnt have any food, barely any money to even hold me over even if I left, I honestly didnt see any other option.

    The past couple days havent been easy, I mean everyday is a workload, but I just- Id be better off with people who think I could help people, maybe I could consider hearing them out? I guess it wouldnt hurt to be appreciated once more, it was clear they needed me for a purpose, or they wouldnt have been stalking me. Now dont get me wrong I am still creeped the f*ck out, who wouldnt be? At this point I took in consideration to hear them out and if I didnt like the deal, I'd just escape once more, and then leave the country to god knows where.

    It was a gloomy Saturday morning, where the clouds were covering the tallest buildings in Brooklyn, New York and had a grayish blue tint engulfing the sky like a shield. Today was the day you were going to meet the men, to see what it was that they really wanted you for, hopefully it was for something good.

   
    You got ready for the day, gathering your strength and by that actually eating something other than something from a box. While you were headed out toward the door, you hesitated. You looked toward your bedroom, thinking if it would be for the best...before you left your apartment for what feels like forever, you turned back and headed to your bedroom, grabbing a hold of your brother's pocket knife, you clutched the knife in your hand and headed out the door towards the bar.

   

    Once I arrived at the bar, I felt my gut tense. I simply took a deep breath and made my way through the door. I stepped inside and before I knew it, here comes my boss daunting toward me with so much intimidation in his step. I instantly grew intimidated and nervously chuckled as he made his way over to me, pulling me into his office.

    "Why in the hell are you here?" he questioned me with a concerned tone.

    "I have nowhere to go, no money, and I certainly dont have a purpose, so I thought maybe, just maybe, Id have some sort of importance with them, they said they needed me for a good reason, so I just wanted to talk.."

    "You WHAT?- you cant be serious y/n!"

There it was, the question. Was I really serious? Was I really about to risk it all just to feel an ounce of importance again?

    "I dont know Josh! I dont know if I'm ready or if I'm serious about this, but-but what do I have to lose? I have nothing left, I have no one, you are all I have left, and you couldnt care less about me!"

    "That's not true y/n" He tensed at the accusation, rubbing his forehead in frustration.

    "Really? Isnt it though? Ever since Marie found me on the side of the road and took me in, you wanted nothing to do with me, you didnt even care to talk to me for the first few months I was there, but now- now since Marie died, you suddenly care?"
I felt my emotion build up, with a lump in my throat that was the only thing helping me hold back the tears.

    "Yes! Because its what Marie wouldve wanted! I am doing this- making sure you are well for her!" He exclaimed. At this point we were both at tears, I understood his pain and he understood mine.

    "I- look Im sorry- for bringing Marie into this..I didnt mean to upset you, o-or make you feel guilty. I just dont have any options and I just thought- I thought this would be my chance to finally feel some sort of...value to myself "I exhaled a breath I didnt know I was holding in,

    "I just want to do something with my life, to be able to not feel so miserable all the damn time!"

    "Look-" He slowly made his way down to my level as I kept my head in my hands, kneeling down, he put his hand onto my shoulder, reassuring me of his support,

    "I know this is..tough for you, but I want you to do whatever you feel is right for you, just know I am here for you." He smiled as he stood back up, patting my shoulder and left the room.

I wiped my tears from my drenched face, stood up on the heels of my feet and took off to the bar, taking a seat and waited until the three gentlemen walked through that door.    

    Closing time was occurring quickly, it almost being 2am, and it being the weekend, so there were definitely more stragglers hanging around. As I was waiting still, I decided to help clean up for closing, considering its been a whole work day that Ive wasted waiting.

    "Anything?" I jumped up and out of my thoughts, startled by the sound of my boss coming from behind me.

    "Hu- what? Oh-uh no nothing yet." I say, looking back down as I finish wiping down the countertops.     

    "Okay, well if youd like you can spend the night at my place and come in with me and try again tomorrow." he gestured. I exhaled, wishing I could bring myself up to it.

    "You know I cant, as much as Id love to, I just...cant." I looked down, trying to fight the urge of tears.

    " I understand, just know you are welcome, anytime, but I am going to head home for the night. Are you sure youll be okay to finish things up here?" He looked at me and talked with such care in his body language.

   "Yeah, I will, Thank you Josh" I gave him a small grin while he chuckled back at me.

   "This will be the only time I will allow it y/n." He huffed while I just laughed.

    "I wish you the best y/n, stay out of trouble for me will ya?" He says before he exits the building.

    "Will do, thank you" I replied giving him another reassuring smile and with that he was gone.

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