3 days after the get-together with the three men in black, it was the day that my life would most likely change...and hopefully for the better. I was ready for whatever was to come.
I took my last night in my apartment to pack the rest of what I needed, the essentials, to take it all in before I officially left. I will say I will miss this place, it was my own private place, I wouldnt call it my home, but it was close. The only thing that felt like home was with my brother, it didnt matter the place or time, but the person, and that person was him. Although it was a lonely, single apartment, it was a place that I could call my own.
The clock struck midnight, before saying your last goodbyes to the apartment, you took a breath, turned around from the doorway and exhaled, leaving out the door, closing it behind you to your now ex-apartment.
You exited out of your building toward the subway, patiently waiting for the train to arrive. As you patiently waited for the train, you were seated on the bench just across from the tracks, taking it in as this may be the last time you took this subway, the last time youll sit at this bench, the last time youll see the same exact homeless man you give at least $5 to every time you saw him.
Once the train approached the station, you made your way to an empty seat, casually listening to your 'calm & mellow' playlist on Spotify, playing candy crush until your stop appeared. It took a good 30 minute train ride from one stop to the other, giving you enough time to think.
"Am I ready for this?"
I wanted to be ready, dont get me wrong, but could I handle it? The changes? The expectations? What if I messed up? Will they get rid of me over one mistake or even a couple? Would I be quick to replace? Was this just temporary? My mind was all over the place.
Bringing me out of my thoughts and my game of candy crush, the train came to a full stop, opening its sliding doors. I made my way onto the platform, and without hesitation this time, continued making my way to the bar, clicking play on the upcoming song- one of my favorites- 'Space Song by Beach House'. Not only is it a good song, but the music behind the song was soothing, relaxing even. Perfect for the evening.
"It was late at night
You held on tight
From an empty seat
A flash of light
It would take awhile
To make you smile
somewhere in these eyes
I'm on your side
You wide-eyed girls
You get it right
Fall back into place
Fall back into place
Tender is the night
For a broken heart
Who will dry your eyes
When it falls apart
What makes this fragile world go 'round'?
Were you ever lost
Was she ever found?
Somewhere in these eyes
Fall back into place
Fall back into place"
The song came to an end just as I arrived at my destination. Before tucking my earphones in my bag, bringing my key to the door to unlock it, the door opens, frightening me a bit.
"Oh hey y/n, I was just about to close up", Josh said, giving me a warm smile that I returned to him.
"Oh its okay, I am about to head out once they get here, but I wanted to catch you on your way out anyways", I say as we both head back into the building.
"Look y/n I know youre leaving, but are you sure this is the right play? Do you even know where youll be going?", He looked at me concerned as we made our way to a booth, waiting for those three men to arrive.
"All I know is that this is my chance, my chance to do something with myself, to move on. I am tired of living like this, its like ever since he died I-I just stopped living, it was like my life paused while the rest of the world around me kept going, living everyday to the fullest and I was just...there, just barely hanging on..", I sniffled, looking down at my palms, fidgeting my rings.
"I am just trying to do something for myself, and if this was the way, then so be it."
"I understand, I just wish you didnt feel that way, but whatever makes you happy I will be fine with, I just dont want you to find yourself in trouble or a situation you can't get yourself out of or.."
"Or nothing I will be fine!", I interrupted him.
"I will be okay, and I have your number if I need anything", I gave him a reassuring smile.
"Im going to miss you y/n"
"And I will miss you too, I am glad I have you in my life Joshua, I definitely wouldnt be here without you or Marie, so thank you", I pulled him into a tight bear hug, as it will probably be my last for a long time.
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It's Just You and Me, Okay?
Fanficy/n, a young teenager caught up in a mess she cannot control...alone and misunderstood for that matter. But what happens when she finally finds someone who understands? Someone who can..relate? Is it a sign of 'fate'? Will there be an adverse outco...
