In Another Lifetime

.heartache and strange dreams.

Credits to owner for the video above.

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Songs for this part:
-Falling out of love,Maty Noyes-
- Sorry, Halsey-

Annie's P. O. V

I stare at my reflection through the window glass of the coffee shop while i wait for my boyfriend , I've  already thought it through...And i know im not being fair to Bertholdt. We have been together for a 1 year now... But something felt off... Like the times we kissed, hugged or held hands..  Something didn't  sit right  with me.. It's as if there's  no spark? And it didn't feel right? Don't get me wrong he was nice and i really  thought that  he'd  be the one to truly make feel in love.  I've already  been in a few relationships but  none of them lasted long. So I've  decided  to  break up with Bertholdt because.. I know he deserves someone better.. Someone who could fully be in love with him and return all his affections wholeheartedly. I then saw him walk through the front door of the cafe smiling gently he took a seat in front of me.

Hi sweetheart.. why did you call me on such a short notice? You said it was urgent?  Bertholdt asks me as he stared at me worried he held my hands that  were on the table his hands were shaking  a bit.  I wonder if he intuitively  knows what's  about to go down...

I breathe and i remove his hands on mine, i look straight in his eyes.  Bertholdt... I.. I think we should break up.  His worried smile faded into a frown, 

W-why? Was i a bad boyfriend? Bertholdt asks in a shaky voice.

No it's  just...  I don't think i was fair to you... You were giving your whole heart to me...  But I couldn't  do the same...  Bertholdt you don't deserve to be treated like this.. Only receiving a half hearted kiss and love..  So im really sorry..I...think i fell out of love with you... Im so sorry.  My gaze falls down to my knees because  i couldn't look at the pained face he made as i said every word.

I.. See.. You know annie i thought that you were the one for me.. I felt like you were the person i wanted to marry.. I truly loved you..  Bertholdt spoke in a low voice almost  whispering the i love you at the  end.

I know... That's why im letting you go.. I reply.

B-but I don't  really get it...Why couldn't you give your whole heart to me or any of your past boyfriends? He asked me while tears streamed down his face.

I also don't  know why... But all of my relationships so far just didn't  feel right... I look at his reaction his eyebrows were furrowed and his eyes became a little  red from crying.

Even our relationship? Bertholdt stares right at me.

Yeah...  I reply honestly.

Bertholdt  sighs and he stands up,  I thought you were my soulmate but i guess..  It turns out that you were just one of the people who'll  give me experience and lessons.

But annie... "You really did hurt me right here..like no one else has" Bertholdt points at his chest, those few words stung  and i deserved it.  He said it like  he had poison in his tongue.

And with  that Bertholdt left the coffee shop in tears.

I hope that you  find someone who can love you the same... Im sorry it couldn't  be me. I thought while watching him leave.

I could feel my heartache just from remembering his pained face. I'm a monster... I've  hurt countless people in search of feeling love but  in return  i hurt them all. Bertholdts last words to me still  rang in my ears. I left the shop and headed straight  to my house.

When i got home it was the usual scene inside, no one else was home dad probably went to drink again, my paperworks scattered on the floor and leftovers were on the table the sink was filled with dishes i didn't use.

I went to my room and locked myself here,  i didn't bother to open the lights. I collapsed on my bed and hugged my pillow. I let out a scream and a few tears fell from my eyes. 
Im really  sorry Bertholdt... Even though i just liked him.. our breakup gave me a heartache after all i didn't  just  lose a lover i lost a good friend too.. Why couldn't i just fall in love?  Why is it so hard for me to find someone who i can give my whole heart to?  Does that person even exist?  If so where are you.....?

My eyelids felt heavy and i could feel my body relax from the soft bed and i let myself succumb to sleep to temporarily escape my  current heartache.
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Song:
-What falling in love feels like, Jake25.17-

The scenery of my bedroom  disappeared and melted into a new one,  sand spread everywhere  and the sound of crashing waves can be heard  from the sea  in front of me the sky was clear and a cool breeze hit my skin.

Where am i? Why am i at beach? 

I look around and started to walk , where to?  I don't know either.

Annie...??

A voice calls me, I turn around and became face to face with a....blonde man sitting on the sand.

Who are you? I curiously ask the stranger.

No.. It can't  be you.. I must be hallucinating..
He looks up sadly and rubs his eyes to try and remove the image of her in his mind  but to no avail,  the said "hallucination" still stood right in front of him.

Huh?? What are you saying sir? I stared at this guy who was acting weird.

You're dead..  It can't be you..  

What?  Are you crazy? I look at him in disbelief is this guy high or something?

Hm.. I might've already become insane.. I mean you're grave is right here... And i.. See you now? Huh... I must have lost my mind already.

Tomb? I notice the stone beside him, I walked nearer to the tombstone beside the  man,  engraved on it were the words:

Annie leonhardt,
854.
A warrior and soldier, a daughter, a lover and a hero of the rumbling. Rest in peace to the woman who is as strong and beautiful as a crystal.

My eyes widened no way..I can't be dead.. I'm right here breathing and alive. And if I was then who.. Just who was this sad guy beside my supposed grave?
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The Place then started fading and the man's face became a blur.

Annie woke up, sweat dripped down her pale face and her heart was racing.  A..dream?  It was just a dream?  But it felt so real.. That guy...  She tried to remember the face of that guy from her dream but failed and all she remembered were dull lifeless deep blue eyes that stared at her emptily.

Just.. What was that dream?  Who was that man....?

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