Guess Who's Got Mail? (One Direction)

Chapter 14

~ Hey guys! Sorry for the slow update. Just read the Author's note after AND listen to the song on the side to set you in mood for the first part of this chapter. :) ~

Chapter 14

Bree’s POV

To: Cupcaker101

From: GB152

Subject: Where I Was

Dear friend, I can’t tell you what happened last night. But I beg you from the bottom of my heart to forgive me for what happened. I feel terrible that you found yourself in a situation that caused you additional pain. I’m sure whatever you said last night was deserved. And everything says something they regret when they’re stressed. I’m sorry that I put you in a situation that caused you more pain.

I’ve been reading that for a few days now. I already forgave him and we returned to our routine of exchanging emails. It was a freezing Saturday afternoon. I already showered but I somehow fell asleep and got my hair messy again. Dad was out again, leaving me alone with my laptop. This was the latest email I sent which was a few hours ago:

To: GB152

From: Cupcake101

Subject: Christmas without my Mom

Christmas is coming up and they’re cutting down trees. Do you know that Mariah Carey Song? “Miss You Most (At Christmas)? It’s such a sad song. I’ve been thinking about it while I started unpacking the decorations yesterday. Seeing those funky ornaments made of Popsicle sticks and glitter made me think of my mom. I cried so much that I almost couldn’t breathe. I miss her so much. That’s the reason why for the past few years, my house doesn’t have any Christmas décor. I always miss my mother at Christmas but somehow this time is worse because I need some advice from her. I need her to make me some hot chocolate and tell me that everything is going to be alright.

It was the first week of December and I haven’t even started decorating. Well, I started yesterday but I broke down when I started unpacking our old Christmas ornaments. I do this every year. That’s why we usually don’t decorate. My dad’s too busy and I’m too depressed to do so. Taylor tries to help ever since we became best friends but she doesn’t succeed. I just miss my mom so much. It’s hard to spend Christmas without her. I’m going to try and decorate this time.

I got up and went to my walk-in closet to get a box of decorations. I reached for the box on the top shelf and went to the chair near the window. I sat down and put the box of décor beside me. I opened the lid and put it aside. Inside I saw all the decorations I made when I was little. There was the snowflake tree topper that had a little photo of me and my mom’s photo in the middle. It was barely noticeable but it meant a lot to me. There were also the glittery candy canes I made for a school project. But there was one ornament that caught my attention. It was the turtle dove that I bought for myself and my mom. The one that I gave my mom before she was diagnosed with cancer, was never found. I didn’t know where it went.

I was 12 and a half years old then. My dad took me to a toy store so I could pick out my gift. He had an important business call he had to answer so he left me alone to look around the shop. When I picked out a stuffed teddy bear, I also donated a hundred dollars to the charity the toy store was giving to. As the toy store owner’s way to thank you, you get a free Christmas ornament.

 “Take the two turtle doves.”

“I get two?” My 12 year old self asked in disbelief.