You are my sunshine-gini

Chapter 16

Warning for this chapter
Abuse

Nini's POV
"What were you think you thinking of disobeying our rules!" Momma c said the thing is I would be used to it if momma d wasn't in this yelling, and their both drunk that's great! "I was thinking if you guys would let me be a normal teenager I wouldn't have to disobey your rules!" This all started with me trying to sneak out but of course they were both drunk that while I was sneaking around they had to break things. That I got caught with a bottle breaking against my back which caused me to scream in pain and now we're here. "Listen Nina if you keep disobeying our rules you will be in much more pain than you are in!" I was shocked I would understand those words coming from momma c but not momma d. "What do you mean?" I said in a quitter voice. "That means the bottle that hit your back won't be the only thing that brakes against your body." I was hoping it was the drunk part talking but it wasn't and as people say, "what drunk people say is a normal person thoughts" I wish I never heard that saying."

When I looked at momma c she nodded her head agreeing with momma d. I can't believe my own moms would do that they were so loving to me, and now their both just jerks I wish I didn't have to live with them but I do and now I'm changing my thoughts to I don't love them as much as I thought. I just-I wish I had the confidence to talk to people about everything but I don't, why can't I have more confidence! I hate it so much and my friends are family to me yes it's just complicated and hard to talk about. I'm not the one to talk about how I feel unless I'm the one to start the conversation, I feel more comfortable now and I don't feel like I need to tell people unless I'm overwhelmed. Now that I get scared and I put up a wall and I hurt myself, so I don't tell anyone because I know I would disappoint them.

It hurts like hell that I'm not the person everyone thinks I am I try and try but I never achieve what they want. Everyone says it's fine but I know when it comes down to my parents it's never enough. "Nina did you here what we said!" Momma c grand me by the arm and that nicked me out of my thoughts. "We said the less you listen to our rules the less happy you will be!" Momma c tightens her grin and I yelp on pain. "I get it just let go of my arm!" I try pulling my arm away but it doesn't work. "Fine I'll let go, you can't tell anyone about this." I nodded and she let go I hold my wrist because it hurts a lot so now I have to wrap it and make sure no one finds out.

Gina's POV
So I decided I can't do it tomorrow I have to do it later this week it's to much to comprehend and I don't know how to start the conversation. Like "hey Nini I know what you have been doing to yourself and the group know to and we want to help you." Like that's not the best thing to say I have to come up with something but I hav euro do it on the spot. I'm the best under pressure sometimes I know there is more the story behind why Nini is doing this stuff to herself, I know Nini and she isn't the kind of person to talk about her feelings anymore and the wall she has put up it's hard ti break but I'm like the only one that had broken it and can help Nini the way no one is lose can.

It's getting darker outside which means I have to go to bed as I'll think more about all this tomorrow, I also get to hangout with Nini as well maybe I'll bring up her hurting herself in a conversation I don't know yet it's all still complicated.

Nini's POV
"Ow!" I was checking in my wrist I couldn't sleep all night. Every time I would lay on my left side I would wake up it was just to much, it is currently 5:00 am and I'm meeting Gina at 11:00 and I have to make an excuse to Gina what happened to my wrist which I have enough time for. Right now I'm trying to find a outfit to help me cover my wrist hoping I don't have to explain anything but that won't be possible. Gina knows when I'm hiding something so it's going to be impossible to hide it, I find a blue, white, with gray tie dye shirt a over sized sweatshirt and ripped jeans I'm hoping this won't be suspicious. It probably won't help but I'll go with it, now I am hoping I don't run into my moms house when I go downstairs no ones their I'm pretty they have a bad headache which I don't care about.

I go to the bathroom find the wrap to wrap my wrist it's currently 6:40 and I am leaving early so o don't have to run into my moms at all today. I'm just going to the park then to Big Red's family Pizza restaurant and write songs get things off of my head, I haven't wrote songs in about two years I mean I write things in my notes app of ideas but I never continued the idea of the song. I don't want Big Red there but I never know when their running short staffed so he could be there. After I warped my wrist I I got my keys and headed outside I ran into someone while trying to find music to listen too. "Oh sorry I didn't see you coming." I said helping pick up the stuff they dropped. "It's fine neither of us were paying attention to where we were going." I froze at the sound of the voice it couldn't be no way. We look up at each other and we both have shocked faces and we couldn't move. "J-Jordan what are you doing here?" I can't believe I had the courage to say something. "I'm my family moved her last week I didn't know you lived here." I nodded my head it fell quit between us but it was a awkward quiet. "Um I'm going to get going have a nice day Jordan." I handed him his stuff and walked away.

I can't believe that just happened, I walked to the park and sat on the bench while listening to music. I got lost in my thoughts thinking about how my life is going, and what might happen, and what how to me during those events. When I got nocked out of my thoughts by a dog barking I checked the time it was 10:15 which means Salt Lake Slices is open. I walked down a couple blocks and enter Salt Lake Slices and sit in a booth, I bring out my note book and think about song lyrics. I made sure not to sit in their best booth so I sat in the very back where I wouldn't bother anyone, I start to write things down until I hear someone sit on the other side of the booth.
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A/n
Hey guys hope you like this chapter how do you think Nini knows Jordan and who could be sitting in the booth with her have a great rest of your day and happy Father's Day!