The Girl I Knew

Chapter 6

Chapter 6

Adronitis: Frustration with how long it takes to know a person.

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The sun rise in the east and we all know that. There's also some saying that when a person is in a bad mood, he or she woke up at the wrong side of the bed, so the question now was where's the right and wrong side of the bed? See, it's just ridiculous thinking about these things.

Anyways, I was greeted by a text message from Timothy saying that he would be waiting for me at their entrance gate and together we'll go to the university. Since our exchange of conversation last night, I was warming up to the idea of having another person into my life. I was an extroverted-introverted individual and a socially selective person. I do not classify myself as an anti-social due to the fact that I do associate and gain friends even though I can only count them using my fingers. But it didn't matter as long as I have true friends.

After thirty minutes or so, I was ready and saw Timothy leaning on his car, a silver Honda Civic. He smiled when he saw me and opened the door for me. I raised my eyebrow at those gestures and couldn't stop myself from teasing him once he was on the driver's seat.

"Oh, Didn't know gentleman still exist."

"They do exist, actually." He smiled and drove away.

He turned the radio on and searched any station playing songs that suited his taste. When I heard Lawson's Standing in the Dark playing in the background I told him to just let it be and not to change the station. He complied. I began humming with the song too.

"Funny how girls love those kind of songs where they are the reasons how broken can we be." He stated, eyes still on the road.

I snorted. "The fact that we feel the pain, too, is enough for us to like songs such as this. Don't judge the girls population based on generalization."

"Oh, I was just voicing out my observation, J. Don't get personal on me. I actually like the song and I can relate to it very much. You know the saying "so close yet so far"?" He looked at me for a split second then back to the road.

"I do." I replied.

"That's what I feel all the time."

My brows creased in confusion on what he said but stayed silent and waited if he would tell me more about it.

"I hate watching on the sidelines. It makes me weak. I ignore my cowardice and do nothing at all. I walk away a million times and lost my honor-as a man."

It was deep and I understood where it came from but be damned, I wanted to lighten the mood. I laughed.

"Oh, you're a man? I didn't know that."

"What the-? After that humiliating exposure speech, you only caught the man thing?" He exclaimed as he parked his car.

I smiled inwardly."Well, I thought you were just a boy whining about how unfair life is." I shrugged and started walking.

He jogged to match my pace and mumbled some incoherent words that only himself could understand. If only he knew that I feel him but much worse than him. I was this little girl complaining the unfairness of life, who had a bad temper and pushed people away even close friends and family. The girl who wanted to be left alone because she didn't need them but much to her disappointed they stick around. To annoy the hell out of her. It came past to the point of no return because hating everyone was way easier than showing kindness.

I plugged my earphones and played Lawson's songs in repeat and didn't say anything to Timothy when he said he'd see me later. His lips formed into a tight line when I only looked at him with wide eyes, pretending I heard none at all. He shook his head and went on his way down to where his building was.