Beautiful Things//O2l/Kian Lawley By Emily

Chapter Ten: Unravel

The party was over, I was upset. When I got to the car I sat in the back wanting to talk to Jeremy. He got in the car and I turned to talk to him waiting until he was settled into the car.
"So Rebeca." I said jumping right to the point.
He smiled looked at me with a little light in his eyes, "Ya, I asked her to be my girlfriend." I stared at him shocked, he doesn't even know her!
"I'm guessing by the make out session you guys were having she said yes." I asked even though it was more like a statement. He smiled looking away from me. "I think I love her." He said in a daze. I blinked at him confused.
"You have know her for what, three hours? How do you love her already!" I said sounding a little harsher than I meant to.
He looked at me frowning "Because I know love when I feel it." He said certainly. He was completely out of his mind.
"Hey maybe you, Kian, Rebeca and I can go out on a double date!" He said happily.
"Oh and was that her idea?" I asked rolling my eyes. He squinted at my folding his arms, "Ya it was. And I think it's a great idea." He said defensively.
"Whatever." I said looking up. Cameron was on her way over to the car. I looked at Jeremy who was still giving me the evil glare and got out of the car not wanting to be around anyone.
"Hey Lexy where are you going?!" Cameron asked. I ignored her walking back to the house and around back looking for Kian.
I found him in the corner talking to Rebeca. I held my breath feeling annoyance and jealousy fill me.
I wanted to walk over and rip her away from him but I decided against it. I watched from a distance waiting for my nerves to calm down. Sam walked over to me crossing his arms and watching them talk.
"Are you gonna go over there?" He asked giving my a side glance.
I scoffed "Do you want me to rip her little head off?" I asked raising an eyebrow.
He laughed nudging me. "Don't worry Kian wouldn't let anything happen." He said.
We watched them for a while before I finally decided to walk over. Kian was leaning in the corner with his phone in his hand nodding as she talked. She stopped putting her hands on her hips obviously frustrated. She looked around catching me eye.
She smirked turning back she said something that made Kian look up at her. She smiled pulling him down and kissing him. I froze in my tracks shocked. After a few seconds he shoved her off stepping back in the corner.
"What the fuck!!" He yelled. She looked at him innocently. By now Sam was by my side grabbing my wrist so I wouldn't get closer. Kian looked up catching my glance. Fear filled his eyes and he shook his head in a daze. He turned back to Rebeca again.
"Get out now!" He yelled pushing past her. He ran his hands through his hair walking up to Sam and I he pulled me into a hug, I hugged him back tightly knowing he needed one.
"Make sure she leaves." He told Sam before pulling me upstairs to the living room.
He let go of me pacing. He shook his head rubbing his neck.
"Kian...." I started
"Don't." He said shaking his head. He had tears threatening at the corners of his eyes. He picked up a wooden chair slamming it on the ground causing it to shatter into a million little pieces, before he continued pacing.
"Kain!" I said trying to get him to focus on me. He closed his eyes balling his hands into fists.
"I need to be alone." He said finally, not looking at me.
"Kian it's not your fault." I said even though I was still hurt. He shook his head anger and sadness in his eyes.
"She kissed me but I..." He stopped resting his hands on the mantle. "But I kissed her back." He slammed his hands on the mantle.
Hurt filled me and I grasped my stomach trying to breath. He finally looked over at me, he looked tired and drained, it didn't help that it was about 2am.
"Why?" I asked quietly.
He turned away stumbling a little, I knew he was drunk. "I...I don't know." He said quietly.
I looked at the floor tears welling in my eyes.
"Okay." I said turning to the door.
He turned to stop me but stopped, watching me as I rushed out of the house running down the street to nowhere.
I ran until I couldn't breathe, tears streaming down my face. Why did he kiss her back? Am I not good enough for him? The only reason it hurt so much is because I finally wanted to tell him I was in love with him. Clearly he didn't feel the same way.
I stopped looking around. I had no idea where I was. I sat down on the side of the road hiding my face in my arms and bringing my knees to my chest. Everything hurt, mentally and physically. I finally understood the meaning for heart broken. Suddenly I felt sick, standing up a held my weight against a little tree. I looked up at the sky remembering the night I first got to know Kian. It seemed like forever ago.
I suddenly realized that if I had never gotten in the car accident none of this would have happened. I held my head trying to control the pounding I now felt. I sat back down wishing I could just fall asleep forever.
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I spent the next few days alone in my house. I didn't pick up the phone, when people knocked on the door I didn't answer, I went out to the store once.
I didn't want to eat, one time I forced myself to but I felt so sick after that I threw up. Mostly I cried. I would relive memories trying to remember the way it felt to be happy but they only brought me more pain.
I wanted to call him. Tell him it was okay and have him come over and hold me in his arms the way he always did when I was upset. I still loved him. It hurt but I did. Finally on the fifth day of hiding in the dark I decided I had to do something.
I showered and changed, putting on a little make up and walked out of the house looking around. I walked over to my car which had been returned to me since Eric had gotten his own car. I got in my car and sat there for a minute.
Finally I started the car pulling out of the driveway and turning left. I drove in a daze, tears threatening at the corners of my eyes. After driving for twenty minutes I reached my destination pulling in and stopping my car.
I got out of the car walking down the cemetery path to where my fathers grave was. I didn't bring flowers, I didn't bring anything, I just wanted to sit with my dad. I sat in front of his grave leaning up against the cold tomb stone.
"Daddy. I don't know what to do." I whispered, tears streaming down my cheeks. "When you died I wasn't alone, I had Kian. He was my rock, my support and I loved him. Daddy I miss you so much." I broke down crying. I turned looking up at the cloudless blue sky.
"Why did you do this to me!" I screamed at the sky as if someone would answer me. "What did I do to deserve this shit!!" I stopped yelling just looking at the sky.
I sat there a minute longer just staring at nothing. My phone rang bringing me out of a daze. It was Cameron again for the seventh time today, she wouldn't give up. I sent her to voicemail, gripping my phone tightly. I could feel anger building inside me again. This was all Rebeca's fault. Kian kissed her back but she kissed him in the first place, knowing I was standing right there. This was her fault. I gripped my phone tighter trying to stay clam but I couldn't. I threw my phone against a tree feeling fire burn inside me.
I took a breath walking over I picked up my phone looking at the now shattered screen, it still worked but it was hard to see anything on the screen. With a sigh I walked back to the car wishing I had just stayed home.
I drove down the winding roads to my house looking at all the scenery. Even on such a beautiful day I still wasn't happy. I wanted to spend every beautiful day with him. As I turned into my street I got a phone call from a number I didn't recognize. I answered cautiously.
"Hello?" I said.
"Lexy." The voice said back to my making my heart drop.
"Kian." I said.
"Lexy I ah, I need your help."
"Why?"
"I um, I got arrested and no one else will help me."
"What happened?!" I asked, shocked.
"I'll tell you everything later but right now, please help me." He said.
His words hit me hard, there was no way I could say no, he sounded so, sad.
I heard a mans voice behind him telling him to wrap it up.
"I'm on my way." I said turning the car around. He didn't say anything he just hung up the phone.
When I got to the police station the sun was setting and there were less cars than I expected. I hurried into the station looking around. A cop approached me and helped me fill out the papers I needed to bail him out and I gave them the bail money officially releasing him from the jail.
He walked out slowly regarding me with a small smile.
He wore a white T-shirt with a jean jacket on over it and a black pair of jeans with holes in the knees. The thing that stuck out the most though was the various bruises and cuts on his face and arm. His lip was split and bleeding, he had a bruise on his cheek bone and on his left arm there were finger prints.
I stood there shocked. "What the hell." I said quietly.
"Can we leave please." He asked, obviously tired. I nodded turning and walking out of the police station.
When we got in the car I gave him a tissue so he could wipe some of the blood off this lip.
"So are you going to tell me what happened?" I asked glancing at him out of the corner of my eye. He took a breath, "Ya." He said. "So basically what happened is..."

**Kian's Flashback**

"Kian." Sam yelled from the kitchen.
"What." I yelled back not looking up from the mess of splintered wood that covered the living room floor from where I had smashed a chair a few days ago.
Sam walked in watching me closely.
"Where did Alexis go?" He asked leaning up against the wall.
"Why do you care?" I snapped, closing my eyes and taking a breath.
"She left you didn't she." He said walking over to where I was. He sat down in the floor next to me picking up little pieces of woods.
"What the hell dude." He said dumping the little pieces into the trash bag sitting next to me.
"I don't want to talk about it." I said turning away from him and standing up.
"Kian, you kissed another girl in front of your girlfriend. You should probably explain yourself." Sam said watching me from the floor.
"Well that sucks cause I don't fucking want to talk about it!" I snapped hitting the wall. "And she kissed me. I just kissed her back."
"Ya cause that makes it sooo much better." Sam said rolling his eyes obviously getting annoyed with me, but I didn't care.
"Whatever Sam just leave me alone." I said turning to walk down the hallway. Sam got up stopping me.
"What are you gonna go do? Call her? Cause you can't. You don't deserve to have her back." He said pushing me over the edge. I stopped not turning to face him.
"What did you say." I asked trying to control my anger.
"I said, you, don't, deserve her!" Sam yelled. I snapped, taking a step forward, I punched him in the jaw knocking him backwards in shock.
"What the hell!" He yelled grabbing my jacket and shoving me up against the wall. I pushed him off of me and he swung his arm punching me in the cheekbone. Pain exploded in the side of my face but I didn't care.
No pain compared to the pain I felt when I saw how hurt Lexy was before she ran out of the house, probably for the last time. He hit me again and I shoved him again blinded by anger. I hit him again and again before he fell to the floor.
I heard footsteps coming down the stairs but I didn't move, watching my best friend struggle to sit up, whipping the blood off of this nose. Rickey appeared in the hallway covering his mouth with his hands. I looked at the horror in his eyes taking a breath.
"Kia...." Rickey started, I pushed past him walking to the front door I opened it slamming it as hard as I could behind me. I walked down the street whipping blood from my lip.
I walked for a while before coming to the corner of the street. I balled my fists up. Picking up a rock I threw it as hard as I could. I watched it fall suddenly colliding with a car window. Shit. Now I was in trouble.
A lady looked though the house window at her car that was parked in the driveway with a smashed window. She pulled out her phone obviously calling the police. I thought about running away but I was tired so I sat down and waited for the cops to come, and when they did, they arrested me.

When Kian finished telling his story I stayed silent not knowing what to say. More than anything I wanted to tell him everything was okay and he still had me but I was scared, he clearly didn't feel the way I felt about him.
We sat in silence for a few more minutes before he spoke, slowly and cautiously.
"Lexy, I don't have feelings for her." He said quietly. I pretended not to pay attention even though I was listening very carefully. "I never meant to hurt you, she kissed me and I was getting drunk, you know that. I wasn't thinking and I fucked up, I know that. But I hated myself for it." He looked at me sadness and truth in his eyes.
I pulled into his driveway parking the car. We sat in silence a second longer, him looking at me, and me looking out the window avoiding eye contact.
"Lexy. I..." He sighed opening his car door, "I'm sorry." He finished. I finally looked at him. He had so much sadness and love in his eyes, it made my heart die a little. I wanted to take him back, kiss him and be with him again.
He closed his eyes, "Please, say something." He said quietly. I looked away not wanting to see him so upset.
"I hope things work out with the guys." I said not looking at him. He sat there a second longer, I could tell he was hurt but so was I.
"Okay." He whispered getting out of the car quickly and running into the house not looking back.
I released my breath not realizing I had been holding it. I sat there a second longer just looking at the house wondering if I should go up to the door and tell him it was all okay. Finally I turned the car on and drove away trying not to let it hurt realizing that might be the last time I saw him.