"Are you sure you want to spill out everything & do this? Whenever your ready, Tommy. I'm here.", Currently we are in our bedroom, it's getting later but neither of us will go to sleep for a while. I sit with Tommy on our bed, holding him in my arms.
"Yes, I-I need to.... for too long I've kept so much to myself. I-I n-need to try & heal...And Eric, you deserve to know everything, I mean I gather you have an idea.... but just don't let go of me." Tommy stammers and I rub his back trying to sooth him & pull him tighter to me.
"Tommy, I love you, try & breathe.... I can only imagine how hard this is for you. But I swear to you, I'm not going to let you go, not now or ever." There's a storm coming....and it's being unleashed.
Tommy takes a deep breath, "I love you too Eric, so very much. My everything, my energizer bunny, my heart.... Ok, so I suppose I should start from the beginning or something, when I'd met her.... I thought she was so beautiful, but I'd never dare ask her out. You know how shy I am...She asked me out. Started out so sweet, but really was a wolf in sheep's clothing. There was something harsh about her at least physically...I just didn't want to see it even then...she was the first-person man or woman who made me feel special. It began with little things, telling me what to wear, with out realizing it she started cutting me off from family...would get insanely jealous.... but still I loved her, I mean I thought I did..."
Oh, Tommy! My sweet Tommy...She better be glad she's in prison now...because God help me....and I haven't heard anything, yet I fear.
"Eric, I thought that was supposed to be what love was...I-I...(Here he breaks down, tears rolling like a river down his face), then there was you...she knew we were friends...but the thing is...well I believe I loved you even then...I just didn't know it...Anyway, so at some point she started to hit me to I don't know 'keep me in line' , There were some gnarly injuries, black eyes, bruises but things I managed to somehow hide with make-up. Then there were the fights, public or otherwise.... then one day, we'd made love...bit it wasn't love it was sex.... she was in control....and suddenly not long after that.... she up & disappeared and sent me divorce papers...I could contact her...and now...Now I find out that I have a daughter and she's been neglected to boot. I---I oh god ( Oh my love, I wish I could take away your pain....that she'd never done what she did to you....it makes sense you flinching from any affection, being closed off....and what she's done to a poor innocent child, who just so happens to be part of the man I love....and therefore she is a part of me as well) So anyway, too...she'd called me a freak when she found out I can have kids, like get pregnant and made sure I knew it too, That's why I didn't tell you...but now I know...it's ok....you don't hate me, don't judge me....you always support me no matter what and now you already claim a daughter that you didn't know about as your own, OUR own....Eric you are truly the one for me! I love you so very, very much!" Tommy sobs out.... looking so very spent but like a huge weight he's been carrying for so long has been lifted...he's still I know Got such a long way to go, but here he is opening up to me.... I am determined to be there for him, I will be.
"Tommy, Shh...baby I'm here.... I'm here. I've got you; I can tell already that you feel lighter.... you can always come to me, for anything.... I hate that you kept all that to yourself & what it's done too you...and the fact that she dared to harm our child...neglect her.... she's damn lucky she's in prison...Anyway, I love you so very much and I know how hard it was for you to tell me all that. Now, how about I take care of you? And draw you a bath with your favorite scent of course and I know it's what 1am or so...but maybe a snack or something to drink?", I thumb away his tears though tears are also streaming down my face as well.
"Eric you're an amazing husband, partner and person...and that sounds wonderful! But only if you join me. And first...kiss me!", Tommy aims a shaky watery smile at me, eyes soft.
"Of course, I'll join you! And you need never ask to kiss me!", and then with that I crash my lips against his & then we spend several minutes making out and it's something we both need for sure, just to feel each other.
"Now how about that bath and that drink?", I grin over my shoulder as we head into the bathroom.
"Screw the drink.... but the bath.... let's do this!", Tommy chuckles & squeezes my hand and we both proceed to strip, and I fill the tub up with my husband's favorite scent of course. Both of us consumed with watching one another. The tub was filled, and I get in first and then help Tommy in as I pull him back against my chest. We can do this Tommy, now you can begin to heal, and I do believe you will continue to open up to me and I believe its fate that a little girl who we haven't even met yet was the catalyst.
"Eric, Kitty I love you. Thank you so very much.... I am so lucky to have you.", Tommy whispers playing with some suds.
"I love you too & it's me that's lucky to have you.", I whisper back just as quietly, both of us content to be with one another, both of us feeling like a huge weight has been lifted off our shoulders. True, there's still a ways to go, but all this is definitely a huge step in the right direction.
A/N: Can't wait to hear your thoughts on this chapter! Stay tuned for more! up next in my update rotation will be when lightning strikes Sixx.
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Cat's Love & The Secrets of Space: An Eric Singer & Tommy Thayer Story
RomanceSummary: The Year is 2009, Eric Singer and Tommy Thayer started out as friends and remained so for years. Now though they are newly married, they have been for a couple of months. However, there are secrets that Tommy has been keeping from his husb...
