Cat's Love & The Secrets of Space: An Eric Singer & Tommy Thayer Story

Chapter 4- What do You Mean I have a daughter?! (Tommy Thayer POV)

A/N: A big reveal, and much drama....

It was a typical day for Kiss in the recording studio, I am in my element, and I am having a good time. Sure, we are super focused on recording, we really do sound tight! But we have a good time too, nothing wrong with that. I need days like this, in addition to my amazing husband of course. I just overall want to FEEL normal, ya know?

Currently, Eric & I had been running over parts together for a song.... things are going great. WE go so very well together & not just musically.... he is my everything! Gene & Paul are looking on...Still, I've had this nagging feeling all day that something is going to happen, something huge & it makes me fear...fear Eric leaving me.... I just don't know why.... I do have the feeling, that soon I will find out.

Eric & finish our run thru and I can't help but smile at him...the moment is broken by Kiss Manager: Doc McGhee, who looks profoundly serious and that makes my heart drop. It makes my heart drop & I begin to tremble, because that look is directed at me. What 's going on?! Why Do I feel like this is going to change my life? And wait when did Eric come sit beside me?

"Tommy, you have a phone call...the police are on the phone.", Doc says & he looks so solemn and a little angry, but not angry at me....

"Police?" I manage to croak out & I feel Eric squeeze my hand & turn to him, "Please come with me, I need you."

"Tommy of course I'm coming with you! I'm here for you...I promise whatever it is, it will be ok baby." And with that we share a kiss, lips lingering a bit.... I need this.

Eric & I follow Doc into another room, and I am handed the phone immediately. My palms are sweaty, I feel like the walls are starting to close in.

"Is this Tommy Thayer?", A voice on the other end sounds upset and I swear sorrowful too.... My heart drops to the floor, yet again. Why do I get the feeling this has to do with my abusive, bitch of an ex-wife? And the feeling my life is fixing to change forever?

"Y-yes, this is T-Tommy Thayer. I'm not in trouble, right?", Geez the automatic response, ugh.

"No, you're not, but your ex-wife Amber IS...we know about your past with her, the pictures of your injuries & or bruises, the abuse you've suffered....it seems that she was keeping something from you. ---" (A deep breath is taken) "There's no easy way to say this, but it seems you have a five-year-old daughter & as your name is listed on the birth certificate & the child looks just like you...". I have a daughter?!!! I had no clue, no clue at all.... this is, this is...holy shit! If Amber treated me so bad.... what on earth did she do this poor innocent child?! This DOES explain why she's abruptly left me one day...I...it's so hard to concentrate....

I feel Eric wrap his arms around me, I am trembling SO bad right now....

"Mr. Thayer, we've actually been after her for some time....it seems she was very neglectful of the poor child among other things, left her alone for hours....neighbors caught your daughter wandering around....Her name, is Harley Jane....as her father and legal guardian as per the birth-certificate, we feel it's appropriate for you to take your daughter, will you accept & do this?"

Even though I am in shambles and feel like I could pass out at any given time, I managed to squeak out a yes.

"We will be in contact with you with more details and all...and I am so sorry Mr. Thayer." And the call ends & I drop the phone....and that's the last thing I remember before everything faded....

When I came to, I find myself still in my husband's arms and Eric is so upset, he's crying.... What did I do? Then it hits me, he's not mad at me.... Breath Tommy...breath & wait are we at home?

"Tommy, what happened?! Baby, what did they tell you? I'm not mad & no matter what...I promise you I am not going anywhere not now, not ever...I figured it was best to get you to our house...", Eric is so stricken....and holds me tightly.

"Doc didn't tell you? maybe he figured it would be better coming from me... (Deep breath) Apparently, there was something that Amber has kept from me.... when she abruptly left me several years ago out of the blue....um uh oh god, I have a daughter...I sw-swear I had no idea!! She, um Amber was arrested...they are going to contact me again with details...b-but I said I'd take my daughter...E-Eric. Sorry!!", I sob clinging to my husband for dear life.... This is it; this is where he leaves me, hates me.... hurts me.... I-I...

I feel him tilt my chin up, "Tommy, breathe my love...I told you I'm not going anywhere, I've got you. And you have a daughter, that's amazing...I know I will love her even though I haven't met her. I have the feeling...that your bitch of an ex-wife hurt our daughter, didn't she? Was neglectful I'd imagine.... Oh Tommy, it will be ok!"

"Wait, y-you're not mad? And did you say our daughter?", I whisper tearfully.

"I'm mad at your evil ex-wife, she's seriously fucked up to say the least...and with what I imagine she's done to our daughter, she's lucky I don't....Anyway, this is a shock but I've wanted to start a family with you...and I imagine the love that she needs, our daughter...I said that because I know I'll love her as my own, because she's part of you and what's yours is mine...What's her name?" My jaw is dropped right now....

"Um, they said...Harley Jane.... she's five. I can't believe this...um there's something else I feel I should tell you....um I can have kids.... like um get pregnant.... I never told you because well Amber was very abusive and made me feel like a freak....and God Eric I am SORRY! I never meant to hurt you...I...", and here I break down again.

"Tommy, I kind of figured that you could get pregnant with how moody you get once a month and crave weird foods & stuff, my love I am not angry & don't be sorry! You haven't hurt me, you could never.... I know how hard this was for you to say & what you're going thru, have been thru.... I've got you." And here he kisses me & feel such love in his kiss....and I feel finally I can start to tell him EVERYTHING.

"Eric, I think I'm ready to talk and tell everything.... I need to heal....and start healing. God, I love you so much!", I cry.

"If your sure you are ready Tommy, take your time...take all the time you need, ok?"

"I feel I need to do this Eric, and I can never tell you how much it means to me.... you mean to me...your amazing! You're an amazing husband." I manage a watery smile.

"Tommy, I love you.... I've got you.... we will get thru this together." And once again Eric kisses me and it's full of so much passion and love...He won't leave me.... he won't...Oh I am seeing.... I am starting to see. 

A/N: I can't wait to hear thoughts on this! I could have kept writing honestly, Now Tommy can start on a journey to healing!