Finding You // Cashton

Chapter 8

Calum POV

As we were constantly getting trampled by crazed fans, and haters, I looked over to Ashton who looked worried as shit, and tried to pull him towards me. It was no use. All they did was stomp on my arm until I let go of him, which honestly hurt like hell. I could see the bruises already starting to form on the side of his cheeks. Suddenly he came out of sight, I no longer saw him. At the blink of an eye, I was already pulled out of the huge crowd and brought to a safe shelter to hide. When I finally came back to my senses and I was able to see clearly, I saw Luke.

"Luke, get the fuck away from me" I growled.

"Woah woah woah, that isn't something you say to the person who pretty much saved you and your boyfriend's god damn life." Luke sassed while rolling his eyes.

Ashton looked towards the floor quietly.

"W-well thank you Lucas." I gave him a small smile.

"You know, just because you hate me doesn't mean your not allowed to still call me Luke." He said as he was walking away.

"You know what, leave." Ashton barked quickly regretting what he had said.

"But.. What did I do wrong??" I asked confused as ever.

"J-just leave." He quietly said looking down.

As I slowly walked down the corridor of the 8th floor, I kept wondering to myself as to what I did wrong. I mean i'm always fucking up, so I wouldn't be suprised if it actually was my fault... Or maybe i'm just putting myself down too much, because it really isn't anything new. I just met this guy, but it feels like i've known him ever since I was 14... I mean I have been watching his videos for quite a few years.

The past few years have been quite painful but this, this just really breaks me. Every single little glass shard of my heart has been spread throughout the carpet floor of my hotel room, and as of now the tears of yesterday are slowly coming back to my eyes, from my eyes, to the floor also. I just guess that pain is inevitable and that it's a way of life.

I've been dreaming of meeting him and now that I did, I wanna turn back time and erase all my memories of even seeing him. I guess the person in my phone screen was the person I really wanted to meet, because the person I met yesterday was monster. He lured me into his trap and made me feel loved and special, but then he set out his trap and hurt me internally.

It's almost been a few hours, and there's a sudden knock on my door. And there he is, in the flannel he wore yesterday and the messy hair from this morning. But instead, the dimples on his cheeks were replaced with tears.

"I'm so sorry. I've just been so confused ever since I met you, and it's fucking frustrating." He chokes out silently crying.

"How is it frustrating?"

"Because... Can we just leave off where you stayed the night at my room?" He suggested.

"I was just about to ask that." I replied, relieved as hell.

And for the rest of the night shall be the day I actually felt true hapiness. I felt wanted, as if the heavens were on my side just for this night. All we did was blabber on about our lives until there was no longer a single damn thing to talk about. He made me feel like I could actually be happy for the rest of my life, instead of a sad little depressed boy who lost his father at a sort've young age. But you already know how the pain game works... 

"Calum do you really think I would kiss you out of pity? I'm not that fucking low." Ashton frowned.

"Well what do you expect?!?! I've been hurt countless times, like the time I first ever fell in love. It hurt really badly once I found out the truth..." 

"Well then tell me what happened so I can understand Cal." Ashton spoke out of all seriousness.

'It started in the beginning of my freshman year.."

~Flashback to Freshman Year

"Cal baby let's go to the game already, coach is gonna be pissed as hell at me."  Sebastian whined as I slowly walked towards the locker rooms.

As we slowly walked, there was suddenly a fine ass guy before us, and following him was many more.

"Did you do it yet Sebastii?" The first boy whined loudly.

"Do what Sebastian. Tell me." 

"I don't love you. I love Cassie. You seriously thought a hot ass quarterback would suddenly become gay and fall in love with a nobody like you? Boy you must be dreaming." He explained loudly while pointing at the gorgeous girl standing next to him.

~Back to Reality

"I was heartbroken and felt like a complete idiot. Eveyone had their cameras out and was videoing me crying. I felt as if something was terribly wrong with myself. I didn't wanna even breath."

"Oh my, i'm so sorry Cal, I didn't know. But you know I would never do that to you. I want you and only you, and trust me i'm as gay as can be." 

"Naah because your as straight as a ruler." I joked.

From then on we kissed a little and joked around as the night changed into morning time.

 OMG HEY GUYS!! ;0; You will not believe it! My dear Lexi will be rejoining us again. Heres the letter to me that she has wrote. ;) 

"Mimi, its Lexiii!!

I miss you!

I'm sooooo sorry I haven't been on or updated. I deleted both my stories, Imma start fresh but I still wanna write with you. I just haven't been on Wattpad as much cause I turned the notifications off.

I'm sorry that we've been drifting, and almost drifted completely. We can't really talk on kik anymore due to me getting in trouble and loosing kik completely. But we can always DM. I wanna tell you a bunch of stuff that's happen, since we've stopped talking. I haven't figured out a way to talk to you. I thought this was a good idea tho. lol

DM ME ONCE YOUVE SEEN THIS!!!!!"

AHH I'm soso happy. Also, I have started a little diary type of thing, if yall have time will you guys take the time out to read it? WARNING!! It is extremely personal and sometimes depressing!! READ AT YOUR OWN CAUTION. 

What do you guys want to happen next chapter??