Grace

New life

(Please comment any mistake I make, sorry)

I looked at the sharp peace of broken mirror in my hand, I watched it glistening in the light smiled slightly at the thought of what im gonna do next. I brought it down to my wrist slowly running it across my skin taking in the pleasurable pain, I moved up my arm making more and more slits. I watch as the blood ran down my arm dripping on to the floor of the bathtub where I was sitting. Cutting deeply into my skin, I could feel the pain but that didn't stop me from moving over to my other arm and repeating my actions. I knew it was wrong but I couldn't stop, I was a mistake and deserved to be punished. I looked down my leg were covered in the sticky drying red liquid. I need more, I couldn't stop yet. I felt my self becoming a little light headed, I was used to it. I had to do this, I needed this. I slowly presses the sharp glass down into my thigh re-opening unhealed cuts from the day before. I sighed leaning against the back of the bathtub, closing my eyes. I was so tired, my body was so heavy. Sometimes after a shower il take a short nap, today was different, more tired than usual. I let my self slip in a dreamless sleep.

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I herd a beeping echo around my head, I knew where I was, the hospital. Damn it, Luna Clair must have found me when I fell asleep. She once found me in a similar situation, ever since then she hardly lets me out of her sight. Checking on me at least once a day, I know she is worried about me but worry won't fix me. "Grace, please I know your awake" she whispered. When my mother passed away, Luna Clair felt the responsibility to mother me around. I opened my eyes and made eye contact to show her that I herd her, but then rolled on my side and turned my back to her to show I was angry at her. "Grace, please talk to me, how can I help you?" She asked there was along silence and after a while I herd the door to the room close, she left. Probably to tell a nurse or doctor I'm awake.

The door opened again "Grace" A hard yet kind voice spoke my name, it was alpha John. "We have decided to send you to live with your grandmother" she spoke softly and slowly. My Nana was my only close family left but she live in another pack, Luna Clair said I could stay and live her under her guardianship if I wanted. I obviously chose to stay, I felt more close to my parents here. "You will be able to get the proper help you need there, and of course your welcome back when ever you want" He said, If I was welcome then why were they sending me away? Their tired of me, having to baby me around. Of course this would happen to me. "I halve already spoken with Alpha Xavier, after a bit of negotiating he decided to accept you into his pack" Alpha Xavier is a strong alpha, vary rough and down to business. "I'm sorry Grace" he said and walked out.

I could hear Luna Clair's sobbing out side my door, no doubt wrapped up in her mates arms. Soon a nurse walked in, middle aged her name was Nancy. She usually attended to me, she was nice but I was sick of her pitiful looks. "Come on Grace, it's time to go" she set a pile of my cloths on the end of my bed and slowing took the IV out of my arm. I saw my suitcase packed beside the door. I walked into the bathroom across the hall from my room. I sat on the toilet seat and rubbed my eyes. I slipped in to the comfy sweatpants and my brothers sweat shirt. I pulled my in hair into a bun to get it out of the way, I sighed and walked out.

Alpha John was standing there waiting with my suitcases in his hands. "I will be personally escorting you to alpha Xavier's pack" he spoke softly like he was afraid I would shatter at his words. I nodded.

After a long drive to the airport we checked in and went through security, now we were currently waiting to board our plane. My bones were already aching from the short walk through the airport and standing in the long lines for customs and baggage drop off. My wrist and thighs were in immense pain, couldn't they have waited a day or more to rest, why did they have to ship me away the minute I woke up?