The naturals - one shots

The past between us part2

Sterlings POV:

If Silence could kill me I would be dead right now.
The only noise and the room was my racing heart and his breath.
I couldn't breath.
My hands were shaky and I knew if I would turn around and face him now... I would loose it.
„Did you know if it was"
I closed my eyes and interrupted him.
„It was a girl"
She would be seven years old now.
The thought of it brought back all the pain.
A pain that sting so much, that the tears in my eyes fall down my cheeks.
„V" this name.
I lost it.
I couldn't resist it anymore.
Without having any control about my feelings anymore I slid down the counter and fell to my knees.
„I lost it"
I sobbed and tried to find the control again.
To my surprise Tanner sat down next to me, wrapped his arms around me and even though I wanted to hate him.
Wanted to hate the feeling of his warmth, wanted to push him away, I put my arms around his waist and dig my face into his chest.
„How did it happen?"
His voice was soft.
I knew he wanted to know but he was also afraid to trigger me.
The Memories were buried deep in a corner of my mind, that I never attended to open up again. „He killed it"
I could hear his heart beating.
It was faster then the average beat.
He went of his usual melody and so did I.
„He? As the person you had to spy on?"
I knotted and searched unattentionly  after his hands.
„He found out who I was after all those month"
I did break because I knew the next thing was something he would struggle to progress.
„After all those nights"
„You slept with him?"
He pushed me slightly away to see my face.
„You know how these undercover jobs work when they use women"
I remembered that I was at first blind enough to think I could get all the information without giving my body away.
For me this case was the perfect opportunity to run way from my old life.
Run away from my old personality.
Run away from everything that could possibly hurt me.
Instead I found a new way to hurt myself.
„He first thought it was his baby and then he did the math"
I couldn't tell him how it happened, I had no strength to bring those memories back. „
„Oh V."
The only think that I could say was.
„Do you remember the night I had this Panik attack and I needed your help to change my clothes?"
This was the night after we found out that my father was behind everything.
Tanner saw me completely naked that night and I still knew how his eyes felt down at my body. „You mean the scars at your stomach and down your spine?"
We still spoke the same language.
„I survived"
That was the only thing I could bring out and out of the sudden I felt Tanners arm pushing me even closer to him, he was crying.
I didn't had to look up, I could feel his body shaking.
He was crying for our child, he was crying for me and that was the moment I understood that I still loved him.

I always thought they should have talked more about the connection Sterling and Briggs had. I know its similar to one of the other one shots but still found it in my old drafts.