>>> Sterling talking to her made up teenage daughter about her current feelings towards Briggs <<<<
„He was so afraid to hurt me as well that he put me in this boarding school" My eyes were focused out of the window. The autumn nature was blurry in front of my eyes. „Back then I thought that after he banned you out of his life, he also wanted to do the same with me" I swallowed, I could feel the pain going through my heart, like little broken mirror glass pieces that got bigger with every word. „I thought that I reminded him to much of you and that he hated me afterwards" Without realising at first tears dropped out of my eyes. „How could he do this?" It was just a whisper. Without saying another word Tjiara put her fingers around mine and looked at them for a moment as if she could find the answers there and started to tell me a story that felt so far away that I couldn't believe that it actually happened. „You know when we flew to Paris. Tanner, you, Scarlett and me" By hearing Scarletts name a shiver went down my spine. „ They thought that I was asleep but I wasn't" My daughter went through her hair as if the next thing she would say was so painful that she tried to touch it as smooth as possible. „Scarlett said if he would ever hurt you, she would kill him." Nothing that she could do now. „And Tanner said he could never hurt you and Scarlett nodded, she actually believed him" I gazed out of the window again. Sometimes I woke up and could still feel his hand on my cheek, could still see the bruises that formed after that night on my body like a painting and I could still taste the tears in my mouth like it was yesterday. „That was seven years ago" „I know." And I was back. Back in our old house that was now his, I was back in the FBI where he was my boss now and I was able to see our daughter again because he gave me the permission to it. „V, do you still love him?"
I knew that this question would come and I wanted to say no, wanted to hate that man until I was dead!
This whole coming back to Quantico was just because I had to run away from that other man.
That man that I loved me so much but I never felt a thing.
He never knew my real me.
That me that I closed down after my best friend died, after my husband hit me, after he denied me to see my daughter.
The man I was with while burying my old life came too close and as always I jumped on the next best opportunity to run from him before he could propose even though that jump brought me back into my old past.
Through boundaries I didn't wanted to cross anymore and then I met him again.
My jump brought me back to Tanner my ex husband that I hated half my life.
I hated the reality but I felt the connection again, I felt an energy I haven't felt for years and the most important thing was that I felt safe around him.
And then I almost lost him.„I don't know" I admitted and had to thing back to that moment that I accidentally kissed him after they could safe his life. For a small second my real me came out, out of nothing, without warning and I couldn't take it back and his reaction...
I knew he wouldn't have kissed me first.
Since then he always touched me accidentally whenever he could. Helped me out of the car, gripped my hip and non of these things made me feel uneasy. I even allowed myself to laugh in his presence, something I hadn't done for years.„I haven't seen you so happy for such a long time" Tjiara brought me back in the presence. I finally looked away from the window and nodded in her direction. „He asked me out for a dinner, would it be ok for you if I would say yes?"
When do you guys think Sterling fell in Love again? And do you think Briggs loved her first or did she had the feelings home before ?
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The naturals - one shots
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