Fall again

Chp7

Chapter 7 ~ Going Out?

"Yo!" my roommate greeted, getting in.

I looked up from where I sat cross-legged on the middle of the bed with the pillow on my lap.

I dropped my elbows on the pillow, "hey..."I said in a low drained voice.

Divyanshi scrunched up her nose sniffing, "did you smell that? "

"Hmm" I nodded to whatever she was saying, probably because I didn't hear what it was.

I gazed down at the white pillow staring at it lifelessly.

"It is Despair! Serra, there's despair filled in this room and I am gonna suffocate from too much of despair in this room"

I frowned then nodded again it was better to agree to whatever she was saying than to exhaust whatever remaining energy I had in my body in disputing with her.

I laid back on the bed now staring at the ceiling clutching the pillow to my chest.

In movies and books, this is the exact position where the protagonist stare at the ceiling then retrospect about their life.

Right now, I could only think of how dusty my fan was?
When was the last time I cleaned my room?

My mother would have had kicked my lazy ass if she was here and lable this sorry excuse for a room, as a dump yard. I could envision her going ballistic throwing me out of my own room.

But yeah I would have trick the maid to clean it up for me and she would get angrier if she found out. Then she would give me lecture on how making your own bed and keeping the room clean is the first sign of becoming successful.

I got lecturing habit from her. It felt good to see someone in my position.

I turned my body away, staring at the fan was making me homesick. How could I miss my mother's nagging and continuous poking me for everything?
That woman was never satisfied with what I did, would always complain and point out my mistakes.

I might be really unwell if I was missing that part the most.

But because of her unstoppable monitoring, I had this frustration this desperate urge to make the things right to improve and turn best at them and once and for all render her quiet, making no room for any complains.

Now that I am away from home from my constant complaining mom, I noticed I hardly even try or work hard to get things better. I have become like a dead fish going with the flow.

I could hear my mother's voice
Do you want to live independently? do you even know how to live independently? Serra,
How to cross a hurdle without having anyone beside you, nudging you to jump and not cover under it?

"Seriously! what happened to you both! Here you are sulking, there he is sulking! did you guys went somewhere together and now you both are having existential crises or what?" Divyanshi came over near my bed, shouting right on top of my head.

Tiredly, I glanced at her with blank eyes lying in the same position, "what?"

She had her hands on her hips she lifted one then waved pointing at something, at her left side. "My brother, he is there"

My eyes widened I sat up immediately slipping on my hand and almost falling out of my bed, "where?" I sputtered squinting at the blurry closed door. I haven't had my contacts on so was actually half-blind now. Oh wait 3/4th blind, I knew it was a door already, otherwise I would think of it as some brown unmoving thing.

"And now that I got you out from dazing Serra, today is weekend and I am going out!" She announced.

I turned my head to her with narrowed eyes," and you could have gone out without announcing it to me" I said then laid back with a thump, yanked up my blanket irritatedly, but I punched my face because I couldn't bring it up because Divyanshi held it back.