Demons (phan)

Chapter 6

(Phil POV)

Over the next few weeks, I fall more and more in love with Dan.

I can't ever help but to smile whenever he does, and I always feel my stomach flip when he compliments me. I love twirling my hands through his dark hair, especially when we're kissing.

But of course, I've never told him. I'm terrified of what will happen. Its always different, and I don't want Dan to leave me. After all, I'm not even sure if he loves me back. Its best to hold back, and not tell him.

Anyways, the last month has been great. We bought Dan some nice clothes of his own. It turns out he wears basically the same things I do, but more black. Way more black, actually. He's always saying it represents his soul, but I refuse to believe someone as sweet and cuddly as Dan is so dark on the inside.

He has really started to open up, and we kiss in front of my parents. That's quite a milestone for him, being able to be okay with us in front of them. And we've started holding hands in public, earning a few glares but also more trust in eachother.

He always wants to watch anime and cuddle, and its great. I'm so happy he's happy, or at least he seems to be.

I'm not sure when I'll tell him the truth, or if I ever will. Its harsh, and a terrible thing to imagine, but I can't run around it. There are some serious things wrong with me, and my family. Things you can't ignore, because it won't ever go away. My whole life seems like a fairy tale gone wrong, it doesn't even seem real to me sometimes.

Just in case, I decide to try to say it.

I lift my head from the soft pillow, and slowly pull away from a snoring Dan. It looks like he may wake up, but he just moves around a bit in his deep sleep.

I quietly creep out of my room, and go into the bathroom. I lock the door and turn on the light, looking at my pale reflection.

Will I be able to say it out loud? I still want to ignore this, but it always aches in the back of my mind. I'll have to tell him soon, and let the truth unravel afterwards.

I straighten my posture, and let out a long sigh. I open and close my mouth, trying to utter the words, but I can't. I know its true, I just wish it wasn't.

I wonder what Dan will do when I tell him.

I stare into my sea blue eyes, and whisper the words, just trying to get used to the sound of them.

I say it once more, for the last time before I plan on saying it for real, to Dan.

"I love you."

(AN- LOL BET YOU THOUGHT HE WAS GONNA SAY THE SECRET?!! HHAHHAHHHH I'm sorry lol it will happen soon! The plot will pick up in the next chapter or so, but I'm sorry its been so boring so far :/ also the chapters are always short so sorry about that too. Plz comment and vote! Thank you!)