BAMBOOZLED

A Girl's Mind

*Sin's POV*

My love life was always a mess.

Ever since I was fourteen love found me easily, but it sure as hell didn't stay with me easily. Cedric fell for me quickly and hard and things were great...until he tried to control who I hung out with.

Lee asked me out and I said yes it was very simple and easy...until we started fighting and he started cheating.

Fred and I were doing a prank. It was supposed to be cut and dry. Do the prank, blow everyone's mind, and end it...but we ended up falling in love.

Complications of course followed that.

Then I was back with Cedric and again, getting together was so easy. We fit together perfectly like a goddamn puzzle...until he turned out to be a fucking pyscho.

What Cedric did still haunted me. Every time someone handed me a drink I was terrified about what would be in it. I had nightmares about being trapped under his potion forever. I never thought I would trust another person completely ever again.

How could I after that? How could I ever give myself to someone again?

Somehow I did. I let Fred in completely. I gave him everything. Of course I was terrified to marry him, but I was ready for it. I was getting really into planning. So once again, love had easily found me.

I was happy and in love and ready for the future...until he kissed another girl and lied to me about it for weeks.

I had never been more heartbroken. What Cedric did could never compare to what Freddie had done. How the hell was I ever supposed to trust him again? How could he kiss another girl when he said he'd always want me? And how could he lie?

I thought I was doing something wrong. That I was pushing him away or something, but all the while it was because there was another girl. I had never felt more insecure in my entire life. I thought the insecurity had gone away upon hearing I had done nothing wrong, but it actually got worse.

Why was some random girl in a pub enough to make my fiance drop his guard enough for her to feel like it was okay for her to kiss him? And why didn't he just tell me? Maybe if he would have told me that night I wouldn't be as mad. It's the lies that are killing me.

I knew I was overstaying my welcome at Vice and George's but I couldn't stay with Fred and I couldn't bear to tell my parents that I had called off yet another wedding. I just needed to figure out what the hell I was going to do about this.

I didn't plan on figuring it out tonight though.

There was a knock on Vice and George's door. "Someone is here!" I called.

George went to answer the door. "Oh, hi guys."

Annie stumbled in with Fred leaning against her. I felt bad for her considering he's gotta be almost a foot taller than her.

"What's going on?" I asked.

"He's wasted." Annie sighed. "He's been crying all night."

"I hate being alone." Fred gagged and Annie jumped away from him.

He lost his balance and fell to the floor. Vice came hurrying into the room.

Annie shook her head. "Sin, you have to take him back. He's a mess without you."

"What the hell happened to him?" Vice asked.

"He's drunk." I rolled my eyes. "Did he kiss another girl again?"

"Not that I know of." Annie asked. "Look, Sin, I know what he did was shitty and I was definitely the President of the Tell Sinthia the Truth Club, but this boy loves you! He's so sorry and he's absolutely miserable without you."