BAMBOOZLED

Muggle Date

"L-Lucian. What-um I don't know what to say." I whispered.

"Say yes, Vice."

"It's just...this is a lot and it's very fast and I mean we're not even dating."

"Vice...we've been doing this thing for like two years. I've only been with you since we started this. I don't see other girls or even think about them. I love you. I want to be with you for the rest of my life. A-and even you mentioned we should get more serious."

"I-I know I guess I just didn't think it would be so soon. Lucian I don't think I'm ready for this, it's...it's too much too soon." I said.

"Will you just think about it babe? I-I'm gonna be gone for awhile. Think about it. While I'm gone do whatever you have to do, get whatever you need to get out of your system and then be my fiancee. I will take care of you Vicelia. Forever. You'll never have to feel unloved or alone. That's all you've ever wanted right?"

"Um...yeah. Yeah, I guess that's true. I'll think about it, I promise." I meant that. Maybe it really was time to settle down and let Lucian love me for real.

"Good." Lucian smiled. "I promise this is a really good thing and we're going to continue to be really good together. We're meant to be, Vice. We always have been, I know it."

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"You're marrying Lucian?" Megan almost screamed.

"No, I'm just thinking about it."

"Do you even love him?"

"Yeah, I guess..." I said slowly.

"No, you don't because if you did, you wouldn't say you guess." She pointed out.

"I...could fall in love with him though. It's Luc. This was bound to happen at some point right?"

"Yeah, if you wanted it to Vice, but you don't want that, it's very clear."

"He loves me, Meg. A lot. More than anyone ever has. He's the only guy who's loved me. What if I never find another one who does?"

Megan sighed. "Vice, you are not unlovable. I don't know why you think you are. Lucian Dole is not the only guy who's going to love you. You just have to stop being so damn scared of opening yourself up."

"How?" I whispered.

"You find someone who is worth it. Since you can't open up to Lucian, he's clearly not worth it."

"Maybe you're right. I just...have to think about it." I sighed. "Rick? Could I have another drink?"

"Of course Vice. Everything okay?" He asked as he poured my drink. "You okay?"

"I'm in turmoil." I informed him.

"Over what?"

"Her non boyfriend has asked her to marry him and she doesn't know what to say."

"Wow, that is a lot. It's that Lucian guy right?" I nodded. "I didn't realize he wasn't your boyfriend."

"Yeah neither does he." Megan laughed.

"Well, have you weighed the pros and cons?" Rick questioned.

"Um not really." I said. "Let's see, the pros: Lucian is hot, funny, passionate, great in bed, he loves me, he wants to be with me more than anything."

"And the cons?"

"He doesn't always listen, he's possessive and jealous, he maybe wants more than I can give him...I don't think I'm in love with him the way I should be."