Bad Intentions

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"I don't understand." I said staring at Seth. He'd came over early the next morning saying what he had to say couldn't wait.

"You're just really- intense." He repeated scratching the back of his neck.

"I'm intense? I'm sorry, I honestly have no clue what you are implying." I said offended.

"You are awesome, I just think you deserve someone who can be as intense as you."

"Explain intense." I said scoffing.

"You live for the moment. I live for the days to come." He explained.

"So you're breaking up with me?" I ask.

"I think it's best, I mean we weren't even really dating." He said.

"Alrighty then, happy to have cleared that up then." I said harshly.

"I mean, we can still be friends and all." He offers.

"Nah, I've got enough of those." I said closing the door. Surprisingly I wasn't broken. I wasn't totally and absolutely gutted. Instead I was just relieved. Relieved that this was all over and that I could focus more on what was important.

"Who was that?" Quinn asked putting her hair in a bun.

"Nobody important." I smiled smugly. She cocked and eyebrow but let it go.

"Anyways, last night. Are you good?" She asked walking to stand in front of me.

"Yeah, I'm just tanked with all this shit about mom and now I've got Andy running around without his meds." I said shaking my head.

"You don't have to worry about that. Andy isn't your responsibility." She said sitting by me on the couch.

"But he's my best friend. I'd feel terrible if something happened and I wasn't there. To stop it, I mean." I said.

"He's your best friend. Not your son." She said.

"I know. But-"

"But it's time to stop making excuses for someone who has done nothing these last 11 years other than stress you the hell out." She said honestly.

"If something happens it's on him and his parents. You can't be everyone's parents. You can't parent us and another family. Yesterday was real. You came home late and you cried. That was real. And you can't hide everything real. Who is taking care of you? Who is parenting you?" She asked her blue eyes soft as she asked the question. I was trembling now and at the start of tears.

"I can't afford to have feelings. Not now. Maybe some other time." I said.

"Feelings aren't recorded shows. You can't just keep pushing them off until the next day."

"Yeah, I know but you'll get to them eventually." I said walking up the stairs. I was going to hide in my room until things cooled down in my head.

~*~

I stood in front of the big house and sighed heavily. Andy wasn't answering my calls and even Priscilla didn't want to hang out. This was my very last resort. I looked at my hair and outfit in the mirror. White ripped skinny jeans, a led zeppelin teeshirt with a black and red flannel and a red pair of vans. I ran a hand through my hair and rung the doorbell.

"Peyton Elizabeth! What a surprise? What can I help you with?" Mrs. Greene asked.

"Oh! I was just wondering if Asher was home?" I said sweetly. She smiled clearly surprised.

"Um, you're looking for Asher?" She asked obviously trying to get me to confirm.

"Is he not home? I can come back later if needed." I offered.