You left.. I stayed.

I'll stay

The Present 

"So..what happened?" Jimin asked as he sat across from me in the small café by my house. I felt bad for how I left him on our date and I needed to give him an explanation

"I um" I cleared my throat "I owe you an explanation but before I do, I need your word that this will not leave this table"

"You're scaring me" his eyes widened as he leaned forward and placed his hand on top of mine "Kook, whatever you need to tell me, I promise I will take it to my grave" 

"Yoongi and I were engaged"

"What?" His eyes got even wider as his mouth hung open 

"We were best friends when we met at eleven, boyfriends by sixteen, engaged to be married by twenty one, and at twenty two before our wedding he left me with no explanation. I came home and his stuff was gone" 

"Kook" his eyes watered as his shoulders slouched "I'm so sorry. You've been dealing with his face everyday at the office. That's fucking torture"

"Tell me about it. He keeps trying to talk to me about it and explain himself, but I cant" I shook my head "there's nothing he could say that would make any of this okay. And last night he showed up there because he knew we'd be there and he told me he's in love with me still" 

"What a selfish fucking prick" his voice got deep and his eyebrows furrowed "you don't deserve that. At all. So he's the one you were talking about when Yugyeom came to lunch for the first time?" I nodded and he sighed "I'm so sorry Jungkook"

"You have nothing to be sorry for" I shook my head "but that's why I left last night. I had Jin pick me up and after I cried it out I realized I was being an ass to yo-"

"No" he shook his head "I would've done the same thing. That's some fucked up shit he did"

"I know" I nodded "the worst part? I'm still in love with him. How could I not be? We were together for half our lives" I shook my head "can you imagine what that's like? Coming home and your other half, your better half, the man that loved you unconditionally is just fucking gone?" I started to get teary eyed "it fucked me up Jimin. I hate to admit it, but it took me down a really dark path that I had finally gotten out of..and he shows up like a fucking parasite" 

"I can't even begin to imagine" he sighed and shook his head as he traced my knuckles with his thumb "that's so heartbreaking.. now what do you do?"

"I have no idea. I'll keep being civil in the office, and keep trying to move on I guess" I shrugged "it's been three years.. I mean eventually I'll get over it right?"

His eyes looked even sadder "I don't think you will. I think you'll get better at coping with it..but from the sound of it, it isn't something anyone could get over" 

The Past 

It happened so fast. 

One second I'm in the car with my mom to pick up Yoongi's birthday present, and the next I'm in the hospital. I woke up disoriented and before I could focus on my surroundings I heard the unmistakable voice of my boyfriend 

"Hey" he cooed as he sniffled and gently moved my hair from my forehead 

"Hey" I smiled and my lips hurt "wh-"

"You were in an accident" he choked on a sob "your mom is totally fine, just a broken wrist. You had glass in your face, they gave you some stitches on your cheek" he wiped his face and intertwined his fingers with mine as he sniffled and whimpered "You were out cold, the airbag burned your lips, your chin, and your forehead but it's like sunburn, it'll fade" he kissed my nose and wiped the tears from my face "the impact is what knocked you out"