You left.. I stayed.

Promises

The Present 
Jungkook's POV 

"Are you staying?" My mom asked as we finished eating

"Oh, um, no, that's okay. I took off for a few days, but I can stay at the hotel"

"Are you sure?" I asked softly "I don't mind if you want to stay" 

"Is that a good idea?" 

"I don't see why not" I shrugged 

"Well, figure it out. I have to go to bed though, good night boys"

"Love you" I mumbled as she pecked my cheek

"Love you both" she smiled as she walked towards her room 

"I want you to stay" I admitted shyly 

"I want to stay too kook" he mumbled as he lowered his head "I just don't want us to get comfortable and fall into patterns that could still fall apart" he shook his head "it wouldn't be fair to either of us but especially you" 

"I don't care" I shook my head and reached for his hand "I spent so long thinking you fell out of love with me, that you never loved me, that it was a show, that I chased you away by just being me. I thought something was wrong with me. Knowing the truth..Yoongs please stay" 

"Kook" he closed his eyes and sighed sadly 

"If this whole thing falls apart again, I'll accept it this time. I'll know that it isn't because of me. I can live with that, but not trying? I can't live with that. If we still love each other just as much as we always have, then why can't we?" 

"You're right" he nodded "I'll stay" 

I smiled wide and kissed his cheek "come on then my love" I stood up and extended my hand, he took it with a smile and let me help him up, he walked into the living room and grabbed his backpack off of the floor before coming next to me and taking my hand in his as he led me towards my bedroom. He opened the door and smiled 

"Still smells the same"

"Like hormones and cologne?"

"Like home" he squeezed my hand and smiled up at me, I felt my heart somersault in my chest and couldn't stop myself from kissing his lips, he returned the kiss and dropped his bag onto the floor, he pulled his lips from mine and let go of my hand "I'll get changed and brush my teeth"

"Can we sleep how we used to?"

"How do you mean?"

"Skin to skin?" I wanted to feel as close to him as possible, I knew I was asking a lot but I was hoping he would agree 

"Okay" he said softly and nodded his head, we walked to the bathroom and brushed our teeth together before using the toilet and going back to my room, I locked the door behind me and after a moment of standing in silence he reached for his shirt and pulled it up over his head, I did the same and eventually we were both left in our briefs as we got into my bed "you got bigger" he mumbled as he curled up beside me and squeezed my bicep 

"I started working out a lot. To relieve stress"

"It's crazy" he dragged his hand down my chest and my stomach feeling my muscles contract under his touch made him smile wider "more ink too" 

"Yeah" I mumbled as he dragged his fingers over my tattoos 

"Is-is this for me?" He asked nervously as his finger swirled around the petals of the larch on my shoulder, his birth flower. 

"It is" I nodded as I rolled onto my side to face him 

"It's beautiful" he whispered and closed his eyes, I could tell he was trying not to cry which made my heart sink