Swap it out ~Justin Bieber~

Chapter 48: Getting back on track

Songs for this chapter:

Not a bad thing by Justin Timberlake 

Down to earth by Justin Bieber

Up by Justin Bieber 

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Kennedy: (Also now known as Ashley):

"Please, get out of bed." Vanessa whinned from the other side of the door. "No!" I refuse to get out of bed. 

All I want to do is stay in my bed and hope that my comfy duvet swallows me up and drowns me in the covers. Yep, that's how I plan to die. 

In the comfort of my own bed. And hey, maybe i'll be lucky. It'll be relaxing, quick and painless. 

"Just let me die in this bed!" I yell into the pillow. Vanessa groans, "You can't just die in your covers! You need to get out of bed and get started on your day!" 

"Well maybe I don't feel like continuing with the day. Maybe I just want to sleep in all day, everyday." I grumble. 

"You can't just stop time and sleep in everyday, Ash. Please just unlock the door." She begs. I stay quiet for a bit, trying to convince myself to get out of bed and to unlock that damn door. I finally get the strength and roll out of bed to unlock the door. 

When I do, I plop back onto the bed, crawling under my covers. "Ash, this isn't good. You can't just hide out in here." 

"Yes I can," I reply from under the covers. I'm not ready to leave the tiny sancuary of my bed. I've had no enevergy to do anything and i've been sleepless. I've only start to get some sleep yesterday. For the past two weeks i've been hiding out in this room, refusing to eat or get out or even do anything outside of this bedroom.

I couldn't sleep at night so i'd just stay up and stare at the ceiling or even cry. Vanessa and Austin would take turns coming in to get me out of bed but I always held my stand. I haven't properly ate in the past week either. I just didn't feel like eating or anything. 

Vanessa grabbed the covers with her full strength, pulling them off of me. I groaned. "Vanessa, I don't want to get out of bed."

"Then don't," She snapped. "You need to eat, Ashley, please." She begged. Her fingers rub her forehead as she thinks, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to snap at you I just don't like seeing my close friend act like this. It isn't fair to you." 

Great, now she's pitying me. "Vanessa, i'm fine. I just want to be alone." My voice cracked. She stared at me, as if she was trying to figure out what was going on in my head.

Honestly, I wanted to stay in bed all day. I don't want to eat or go out or even talk to anyone. 

"You need to eat," She whispers, sitting down on the bed. She grabs a bowl full of oats, fruits and yogurt, placing it onto my lap.

"Eat." She demandes.

I sigh, taking the spoon. I weakly bring it up to my lips and take the food into my mouth. I didn't have much of an appetit this past week.  

I take a few more slow bites of my food, chewing it all up slowly. I didn't realize how much the break up with Justin would affect me. It didn't matter. I couldn't do it. I had to leave. 

If I stayed with him I would fall even harder for him then I had before. 

I was so worried that my sister would come back, ready to get back with her normal life. Wether Justin and I would end up together or I would leave like nothing had ever happened I would be upset either way.