I Never...

24. Packing

Okay, so for the past few years my parents have been calling me fat or fatass and telling me I'm overweight for my age and that hurts. I want to believe I'm not overweight for my age, I mean I know I have a stomach but I can't be overweight. I don't know how to love myself and I want to learn how. I want to be able to look in the mirror and like what I see. I want to be able to say I'm beautiful even when I feel disgusting. I want you guys to know that you are beautiful and amazing in every way. I want you to know your worth it in every way. And I love you guys so much, we're all dealing with our own issues and we have to stay strong for one another and for ourselves - Nicole
--------
24. Packing

"@selena_gomez: me and babe after they won their last game ❤️"

I posted a picture of me and Harry the night of his last game. I was so proud of him that night. I wish Harry would talk to me about college, I don't know if he's going to college for football or for something else... I don't know anything about what he's going to be doing the next four years. There was a knock on the door, I walked downstairs and opened the door to see Mason.

"Thanks for doing this Mase"

"Of course Selena, that's what brothers are for"

"Um okay" I handed him a box "here are just some of my stuff"

I walked with him outside to his car, Anne was with Harry grocery shopping so I had a few hours before they got back.

"I have another box"

"That's all you have so far?"

"Yeah, mom has most of my stuff and I have very little stuff here"

"Doesn't Harry know any of your things are missing?"

"No, he hasn't noticed yet..."

"Are you going to tell him your packing?"

"I rather not because then our reality will become real when we've been trying to pretend it's not happening... We both know we're going to break up before we go to the world"

"Well I'm going to bring this to mom for you okay?"

I nodded as I saw Anne's car "alright go, their coming"

I hugged and kissed my brother before he left. Anne pulled her car in the driveway, Harry got out of the car. He wrapped his arm around my waist before he kissed my temple.

"What was your brother doing here?" He asked as he grabbed some groceries.

"Just wanted to check up on me" I smiled

"Oh how is he?"

"Good, he's going to visit my mom now that's another reason why he stopped by"

"Oh that's nice of him"

"Hmm"

I followed Anne and Harry back into the house. I closed the door behind us and helped them put the groceries away. Then Harry went upstairs leaving me and Anne alone.

"So you got rid of some of your stuff?" She asked me.

"Yeah I only have a few stuff left and I'll bring that with me once I officially leave"

"I'm going to miss you so much darling"

I smiled "I'm going to miss you too Anne, it has been a blast living here for the past few months... Your like another mom to me"

"Your like another daughter for me" she pulled me into a hug "your going to do amazing things in college"

"Thank you"

"Babe!"

I pulled away and left the kitchen. I walked upstairs into Harry's room.

"Yeah babe?"