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31. A week left

The song is actually slower, I just couldn't find a video with it but I thought about this song when I was writing this, think it fits.

31. A week left

There was a week left before college starts. I've been hanging out with Sam and Dylan and just getting myself ready for college. Harry and I have been distant since the last time we spoke and God does it it, it hurts so much. I've been crying in my sleep lately so my mom been sleeping with me. I like having her there cause it's like having Harry there in a way. I'm glad to have my mom with me now cause I don't know what I would do without her right now.

My phone rang and it was Harry so I picked up and went to my room.

"Hello?"

"Hey Selena"

"Hi Harry..."

"Sorry I haven't texted or called as much..."

"It's fine... Um so are you there?" I asked him as tears filled my eyes.

"Yes, I'm here" oh god there was a knot in my stomach.

"Oh... How is it?"

"Good, feels good to be home"

"So this is it huh?" I asked straight out.

"Yeah" he sighed "this is it babe"

"Don't Harry... Don't call me that please"

"Sel"

"Just don't call me babe, it hurts too much"

I heard him sigh "alright, sorry Selly"

"Harry... I just wanted to tell you that the months we spent together was beautiful and amazing and I will never forget them nor you... I will always love you Harry. Thank you for everything"

"Your welcome Selena... Thank you for everything. You will always be in my heart, and I will always love you no matter what"

"B-bye Harry..."

"Bye Selena"

I hanged up before one of us could say something else. I pushed my phone away as I cried my heart out. My mom ran into my room and held me as I cried. I was in pain, so much pain and it hurt so much. It hurt so much I just wanted to feel numb. I didn't want to feel broken-hearted, I didn't want to feel any of this. I wanted to see him, I didn't want it to end like this. He's so far away from me now and it burns. My heart is aching now while I cry my heart out. I sighed as I pulled away from my mother.

"I'm going to take a bath"

"You need help?"

"Mom, I'm 18 not five... I'll be fine"

I got up and walked into the bathroom. I closed the door behind me. I set up the bath and placed one of the bath bombs in there. I took off my clothes and got in, while I was in, I was still crying. It was just nonstop. I got out of the bath and let to water go. I put some pajamas on and just lead in bed while I blasted sad music and just cried some more.

"Selena! Listening to sad music isn't going to help you"

I ignored her and just laid there. Now I felt numb, I just kept looking outside the window. I heard the door open then saw my mom standing in front of me.

"Sweetie, I hate seeing you like this... Why don't you call Sam or Dylan and go out? Just forget about this?" I just stared at her.

She sighed "Selena please"

"I don't want to go anywhere" I told her "just want to stay in bed"

"Fine"

She left, after I while, I got up and changed.