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34. My letter

Did a double update because I didn't update yesterday cause I just couldn't... I was still coping with Zayn leaving. I cried a lot when I found out, but we have to support the boys. I hate that people are leavin and not attending their concerts. The boys need us now and we have to be there for him. Now I'm over it, I want Zayn to be happy and if he's happy like this then let him be. The boys will always be our boys, you guys should know that. Even though Zayn isn't part of the band, and without Zayn, there is no One Direction but their still One Direction to me. I will support them all no matter what and I wish them the best.
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34. My letter

*Sam's POV*

I woke up and took in my surroundings, I sighed as I yawned and looked next to me to find it empty. Where's Selena? I look forward and she was sitting in her desk just writing.

"Morning" I spoke.

"Morning... You can change into some of my clothes if you want"

"Alright, I'm going to go take a shower"

"Okay" she answered with her back to me.

*Selena's POV*

I've been writing Harry's letter since I woke, I've wrote at least three other letters that I didn't think we're perfect so I threw them away. It was so hard not to say a lot and not over do, I wanted it to be somewhat simple. I heard footsteps and saw Sam with a towel around her body.

"What your doing?" She asked me.

"I've decided to write a letter back to Harry"

"Really?"

"Yeah" I turned to my letter as she changed.

"Read it to me"

Dear Harry,
My babe, my Hazza... God did that letter just brought it all back. It's been hard so hard to be away from you, not to see your face everyday, not to sleep next to you and wake up to you. It fucking hurts. I'm fine, college is college. A lot of work and parties. I've been to a lot of parties and drinking a lot... I admit I even smoked a few times but I haven't done it in a while... I know you hate it. All those things you wrote Harry, was so beautiful so now it's my time to be romantic. Haz, I have adored the months we spent and I couldn't be happier with them. I wouldn't change anything we did while we were dating cause then that would mess up our story. Our story started the day we first began to talk and ever since then it's been history. I wanted to thank you for taking me in when I needed it most and being there for me with my parents shit. I never felt more apart of a family than yours, your family was so lovely to take me in as one of their own. God do I miss them, tell them I say hi, will ya? Anyway, thank you for changing me, for opening me up to so many opportunities and just life. If I would of never met you, I still will be that same shy quiet girl and I'm so glad I'm not anymore. I'm a new person over here in college, more wild you would say... I don't know if you would like this new me but this new me misses you. I loved waking up and seeing you knocked out next to me. Your arm will be wrapped around me tightly as you slept. Your looked like an angel, my angel. I miss your hair is that weird? Lol I miss my little Tarzan, my little monkey... Harry I fell in love with you everyday we spent together. Even when we were fighting, you fell in love with my flaws and imperfections and I just can't thank you enough for that. I thought I would never be loved the way I was but you proved me wrong, you showed me that I'm capable of being love the way I am and that someone can love me for being me. I can't thank you enough for being my first love and I will never forget that or you. I know you used to be insecure when you were young and God I wish I was there for you. Your not a 6 out of 10 not even a 7 out of 10... Your so much more than that my love, so much. You don't even match on that rate for me, your a million out of a million. That's what I think about you, your fucking an amazing person Harry and don't forget that. I hope you find love, I really do. Don't forget me or what we had but I want you to be happy. It's okay to meet a girl and like her, it's okay to kiss her and fall for her... It will be okay Harry, okay? I hope we find each other in the future, how crazy will that be? It'll be like meeting each other all over again probably be awkward but I can't wait for when that time comes... I love you lots my love, do great things and I believe in you.
Love,
Your Selly

I turned to Sam and she just smiled at me.

"That was beautiful Sel"

"Yeah?" I sighed.

"Yeah babe... That was just so sweet and beautiful"

"Thanks Sam"

I got up and changed. Sam came with me to send it, I placed it in the mail box. We walked back in the apartment and began to eat breakfast and just watch a marathon of Gossip Girl on Netflix. My phone rang and I quickly paused the episode as I answered.

"Hello?"

"Hey Sel!"

"Ashley!! Hey babe, what's up?"

"Nothing much, studying in my flat"

"Ooh look at you! Saying flat trying to be English"

She laughed "it's raining so I'm inside, anyway how's college?"

"Good, busy... Been busy"

"Partying?"

"Don't you know me so well"

"Yup, so everything okay?"

"Yeah, mom's in New York for work I believe... Harry sent me a letter"

"I know... He let me read it before he sent it to you"

"You two are close then?"

"Not much, we're only friends because of you so we're close but not that close"

"Oh... I sent one back"

"Yeah?"

"Hmm just sent it like a few hours ago"

"Wow, Harry will be happy when he gets it"

"Yeah... How is he? Really?"

"He's good, working hard"

"That's good"

"Yeah, he told me he's putting the money away"

"In the bank?"

"Yeah, he said its for the future when he'll need it"

"Hmm... So how's your love life?" I asked her.

"Eh, no cute guys so far but I'll let you know"

"You better"

"You know I will and you will right?"

"Of course"

"Good, I have to go get dinner but love you"

"Love you too Ash"

I hanged up and went back to watching Gossip Girl with Sam. The door opened and I turned back to see my mom come home.

"Hi mom!" I jumped off the couch and into her arms.

"Hi sweetie, guess who I ran into in New York"

"Who?" I asked her when I unwrapped my arms around her.

"Anne"

"Wow... How is she?"

"She's good, she misses you and she says hi"

"Aww! I miss Anne and Robin, they were good people"

"Yeah they are" she smiles.

"I'm just going to go take a nap, okay?"

"Alright"

She walked to her room as I sat back down on the couch.