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So I wrote this when I was feeling a lot of negative emotions, and I needed an outlet that wasn't harm full.
So enjoy a little angst for the 2K+ reads special!
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I looked into the cracked and dusted mirror that was hanging in my room. I had dark circles under my eyes and my S/T didn't look as it did long ago. I was slimmer, and looked terrible. I had lost so much, my home, most of my friends, my family, my lover, and now I was losing myself. I had been strong when I first lost Ymir, telling myself it would get better. It never did. It only got harder. It never got easier waking up without her by my side. Not being held in her protective embrace. Not being able to hear her amazing voice that always brought a smile to my face. Never be able to look in her brown eyes that would turn gold in the sun. Never be able to run my fingers through her hair. Never be able to touch her smooth skin. Never be able to feel her lips against mine.
Tears ran down my face landing on the wood below me. My body shook with sorrow.
I missed her
Her hugs
Her jokes
Her smile
Her voice
I missed her
Everything about her.
A Low knock came from the door.
I quickly wiped my eyes, walked over and opened it.
"Hey are you ready?" Armin asked in a low tone.
I nodded, adjusting my 3DM gear.
In my moment of grief I had forgotten about the mission.
It had been around four months since we had reclaimed wall maria. We were sent out today to kill a group of titans that were still living inside the walls ground.
"How are you?" He asked as we walked down the hall.
I shrugged, it had been a while since I've talked to my friends. It felt wrong to talk to them when I felt like this. When I felt broken. I didn't want to put this weight on them.
Armin gave me a sad smile and continued walking.
We walked out to the field where everyone was waiting. The bright sun burning my sensitive eyes.
"Alright Levi squad we have reports of a group of titans in the north in wall maria-"
But I stopped listening to the newly appointed commander Hange Zoe. I liked how they were running things now. Less lives were lost and people seemed happier. Maybe it's because of the success of capturing wall maria. Many people joined the survey corps after that. Some people who were left were allowed to leave if so desired.
