The story we didn't know

V.

I open my eyes and no whispers are heard. I move to the left and find a note besides my pillow. They both went early to school no details are given. I feel guilty beyond words for my grief to be bothering others. I stay in bed just looking at my bedroom celling for hours.

I hear a knock on my door. It slowly cracks open.

"Kuran-san...I made some brunch...I made plenty and I was wondering i-"

There's no use staying in my room I should give myself a chance to be under some sunlight. I interrupt her:

"Why don't we share outside?"

"Really?!" she gasps.

We go outside, I grabbed a blanket and Hikishima brought the food. We settle everything and we sit and eat awkwardly.

"There's a nice weather today." She sighed afterwards.

"What do you do usually in a time like this Hikishima?" I gave her some wine.

"Thanks. Well..." She drinks the wine quite quickly and spits it out.

"What is this?!"

I chuckle.

"Wine...What did you thought it was?!"

I laugh a bit and Hikishima stares at me with a kind smile on her face.

I stop as remember my bitterness and grief. She changes her gaze, looking to the sky.

"If I had the time, I'd like to go to a park, if I had the money I'd go to a beach, if I had friends I'd see a movie... I wouldn't be so lonely Kuran-san."

I grow silent for a few minutes as I keep eating my first real breakfast as a human in the sunlight.

"She was not my aunt." I mumbled to myself.

"What?"

"My lover...left me and..Ai and Ren's mom...she died...That's why I moved in." I kept eating, those things are not mutually exclusive but it does sound believable as to the reason to why our family is in shambles.

I'm sure she'll be convinced with this explanation better that the other one, I'll just have to tell the kids later...

I notice her big tears as she stares blindly at me.

"Hikishima?"

"They didn't tell me anything...why?" she sobs.

"I guess they've been keeping their minds busy with my problems instead of their own. I'm worried about them but I'm also worried about myself...I've never experienced these kinds of feelings before. What would you do Hikishima-san?" I drink some wine it tastes more wood like than I expected and sour too.

"If the person left you Kuran-san it was their decision to make."

I'm startled as I remember Ren's words.

"I may not know details but when a person decides to leave you it's somewhat similar when someone dies...you just can't blame yourself. You should give yourself some time to actually understand that person's decision or death. Give yourself some time not to forget, but to understand. Go through everything: anger, sadness, frustration... until there's nothing left but space for new emotions..."

"I said too much didn't I?"

I was facing down the whole time; I look at her with tears in my eyes saying:

"Not at all. Maybe we should be sincere towards each other..."