Impossible

Part 9

The song is lay me down by sam smith :)

'Dan?'

A voice called from far away and I shrank further into the dark corner of Phil's hospital room. I assumed he was still with Gaby and Jordan but I couldn't stay in there any more so I ran away.

Again

'Dan, just tell me where you are!' the voice called again, sounding impatient. I worked out that it was Izzy and debated whether to tell her where I was but then remembered how scary she could be and shouted out timidly

'In here!'

The door swung open and Izzy appeared in the doorway, her hair windswept and face flushed.

'What are you doing in here? Phil's in the other room crying his eyes out and you're here doing what? Frick all'

I sighed and rested my forehead on my sweaty palms, not bothering to reply, she was right. I was doing nothing to help him.

Suddenly I was aware of a presence next to me and I lifted my gaze back up to see the girl sat cross legged next to me, fixing her beanie over her knotted hair.

'Sorry, that's not fair. I'm not really doing much either' she said, smiling sadly, and patting my knee awkwardly. I returned the smile and pulled my knees up to my chin. There was silence for a while before Izzy spoke up.

'D-dan?'

'Mmm?' I replied, frowning slightly at her wobbly tone.

'I dont want him to d-die' she choked out before letting out a strangled sob and turning away and covering her soft grey eyes.

I was slightly taken aback by this as Izzy always seemed to be the one who kept it together and smiled, making jokes out of any situation. But now here I was watching her break down in an empty hospital room, right before my eyes

'I know' I answered simply, unsure at to whether I should put an arm around her as comfor or keep my distance

'But you dont know do you?' Izzy replied bluntly, making me jump slightly 'You were in prison Daniel, you dont know what went on. You werent here for Phil when he broke down every night or when he was ill and you havent been here for him very much now either - I have. But who's been looking after me Dan? Nobody stops to think that Izzy, the one who is always here to cheer eveyrbody up, might have problems of her own. Well big news bitches, I do have problems and theyre not going to go away by themselves. I dont matter at the moment though, Phil matters and you need to start realsiing that too'

I shook my head dumbfounded and my mouth opened and closed like a gold fish, words unable to form

'What do you mean?' I finally whispered.

Izzy scooted around so she was facing me and smiled crookedly, picking at a thread on her misfits shirt

'Everybody has a story Dan'

'Can I hear yours?'

She chuckled sweetly and smoothed out her shirt, looking into my eyes

'Maybe one day Daniel, maybe one day'

I chewed my lip lightly and nodded, not sure what to make of what the girl had said. If only I had realised she had just told me her whole life in a few sentences.

'You can call me Dan by the way, Daniel seems too formal for this situation'

'Why, what is this situation?'

'Nothing really, just friends talking'

'Friends eh? You wish. I like to call you Daniel anyway, it's a nice name, it'd be a shame to cut it short.'

'Oh, okay...but that means I get to call you by your full name too. What is it again?'

Izzy blushed a light pink colour and looked at the floor before mumbling

'Izabella. My name is Izabella.'

I smiled 'Well that's what im gonna call you from now on'

She giggled and nudged me with her converse covered foot

'Okay Daniel'

We both laughed uncontrollably at nothing in particular, just enjoying eachothers pesence, then i remembered everything that was happening and stopped, the laughter quickly becoming tears.

Izzy shuffled coser to me and lifted up her hand, wiping a stray tear from my cheek with her thumb softly.

'Thank you' I whispered, thanking her not just from saving my favourite jumper from getting wet, but also for listening and for letting me hear part of her story.

The girl leant forwad quickly and wrapped her slender arms around my neck and squeezing me tight. Shock paralysed me for a second but I then put my arms round her waist and she lay her head on my shoulder.

'You smell like Caramel' Izzy mumbled into the cloth of my jumper, giglling lightly

'You smell like vanilla' I replied, chuckling.

We both laughed and she removed her head from my shoulder, looking onto my eyes and smiling a genuine bright smile which reminded me very much of Phil's.

Suddenly the girl's face fell and her body felt rigid under my arms. I loosened up and she slipped out of my grasp and was stood in the doorway in a matter of seconds.

'Im sorry. I-i can't do this. I need to get back to PJ, he'll be waiting. Look, nothing like this can ever happen again okay? No hugging, no nothing. I can't be more than friends with you Daniel, but for some reason I want to be. I'm putting you in danger by letting you be friends with me, you dont understand now but you will one day. PJ has been more than I could ever ask for, don't ruin that...Please?'

I nodded and she slipped through the door and out into the corridors, leaving me with an unpleasant empty feeling in my stomach and only cold air where her fragile figure had once been in my arms.

'Bye Izabella'

Im sorryyyy okay i promise im not trying to get my own character and Dan in a relationship, this is a PHANfic after all ;) Its all part of the story-line

Thanks for reading!

- Izzy x