trittany

six

after trevor's speech to me and how beautiful i was, i felt like we got even closer as a couple. i loved this guy so much.

"what do want to do?" trevor asked.

we were at his house sitting on his couch. my legs were draped over his lap as i was laying down, on my phone but every so often i would stop to look at him. it sounds creepy but it was true. i loved looking at the boy i called mine.

"anything with you." i said turning my phone off and setting it on my stomach.

"anything?" he asked smirking like an idiot.

"don't get too dirty, cowboy." i laughed.

"do you know what time it is?" he asked.

"no but i'm afraid to here now."

"no, actually! it's ten o'clock." he said.

"what the hell? i thought it was eight," i said getting up.

"i'll come over tomorrow?" i asked stretching.

"britt. you can stay here. like tonight." he said grabbing my hand as he stood up.

i've never slept with trevor or slept over at his house. he's never slept at my house. i guess couples that are four months in should really be taking that step. if anything, they should be further than that.

"are you sure?" i hesitated.

"of course. i've been dying for us to take this step." he said almost reading my mind because we were thinking the same.

were we going to do something else too? were we sleeping in the same bed? i wouldn't mind us sleeping in the same bed or doing you-know-what, i'd just like to talk about it first. but that's weird. this was overwhelming me.

"britt?" trev asked me.

"i know your uneasy about this. you can talk to me."

a sigh of relief flew over me. thank god trevor could read my feelings.

"yeah. i just want to ask you questions but that's weird." i said but regretted it because it sounded really stupid.

"baby, i can answer anything you ask. it won't be weird. it's normal."

"okay...well, are we sleeping together?"

"yeah. if you're comfortable with that." he responded shrugging.

"of course. will we be doing like anything else?" i asked and it was totally weird.

"nah. we don't have to take that step. we both know we're uneasy about that."

"you're right." i said pulling him into a tight hug.

"just cuddling." he said hugging me tighter.

**

i went into the guest bathroom and took off all of my makeup. i stared at my naked face. had trevor seen me like the before? he shouldn't be too scared. this is the real me. i put on the big tshirt trevor had given me to wear. it smelt like him. his amazing cologne. even when he wasn't wearing it, the smell still lingered on him. the bottom of my bum showed in the tshirt but it was super comfy. without brushing my hair, i whipped it into a high bun which surprisingly looked good for not even ten seconds put into it.
i heard shuffling outside the door and realized i'd probably been in the bathroom for too long. i came out to see trevor leaning against the wall.

"you even look beautiful with a blank face, my doll." he said signalling for me to get on his back. i hopped on his back and he brought me to his room.

it was as big as a master bedroom and it was beautiful. it looked like something a couple would share in their house with a handful of kids. that's how i pictured myself in a while. living my dream.

he set me down beside his bed, while he sat on the bed.

"whatcha wanna do?" he asked grabbing my hands and looking at me.

"whatever you wanna do." i suggested and i pulled free from his hands.

i wondered around the room, looking at the pictures on the wall and the little decorations that were up.

"have i ever told you how amazing you look from behind?" he asked.

"slow down there bud." i said smirking and pulled the shirt over my bum.

"especially in my shirt," he said ignoring my comment.

"i'm tired lovey." i told him, half in a weird british accent.

"let's go to bed then baby." he said pulling me from standing up onto his lap.

"goodnight then," i said while i was still set on his lap.

all he gave me was a sweet, long kiss. his lips moved along mine and i pulled away when i was out of breathe.

"goodnight," he whispered as he lay down and i laid beside him.

my back curled into his chest as he set his head above mine. his hands wrapped around my stomach. i felt him give me a soft kiss on my head and then we were silent. it was awkward for a second but i realized i was in the arms of my favourite person in the world. i felt his chest barely move as he breathed in and out. i shut my eyes but suddenly heard his soft, but deep voice.

"love, you don't know but i've always loved cuddling you in my arms. i love hearing your soft breathe while you sleep or talk. you're a beautiful human being brittany. i love you," he whispered.

he made me blush. he must've thought i was sleeping, but i didn't miss a word he said about me.

i love you too trevor.