Snape x reader oneshots/ Imagines

drunk at night

TW: alcohol abuse and selfharm

For some reason you had realy bad grades for the last months. Normally you had straight A's in every subject, sometimes B's but usually A's. Your parents are really disappointed because grades are really important for them, maybe more than your mental health. It stressed you so much. You studied 24/7 in the libary, even more that Hermoine Granger and how is this even possible? Your favorite subject was always DADA but even here you had C's and D's. That  wears you down but you had no one who could help you.  You only talk with Professor Snape. He was your only ,,friend" and you told him about many things about you past, so did he. He noticed that your mental health issues went worse and when he talked to you, you showed him your selfharm wounds. He felt so sorry for you and hugged you. You cried in his arms and he comforted you. He told you everything is going to be okay.

Today you got an E at DADA and you tried your hardest to not have a break down in class. The whole day you acted like everything is okay. In the free period you went to the bathroom crying and of course no one cared or noticed.

In the great hall during dinner you had short eye contact with Severus and he knew something happend. He was busy the whole day and you didnt saw him. And you also dont want to bother him with your problems.

After dinner you went to your room and then you drank a small sip from your hidden fire whiskey bottle but then your roommates interruped you. You went out of the room and you decided to search a place where you can be alone. You went out of the main entrance and you walked 2 kilometers ( 1,2 miles) until you enterd a field with high gras. You took a seat and started to drink. You just wanted to forget your feelings and you didnt care what time it was, because you knew no one is going to look for you besides it was friday and many students went home for the weekend. Not even Severus because will look for you because he's so busy. You started crying and after you drank half the bottle you wanted to go back to Hogwarts but you cant even walk straight anymore. You walked a few meters and then you fell down. You stood up again but you couldnt walk more than 10 meters and you fell again. Then you started crying again. You tried to walk again and after a few times of falling again you enterd the main entrance but instead of walking in you sat down with your head between your legs. You wanted to drink more but then you noticed that you lost the bottle somewhere.

,,y/n? Is that you?" said a dark well known voice. You looked up and saw Professor Snape standing in front of you. Fuck I was just missing that you thought.

,,Hello Sir. Yes its me. Missed me?" you said while you tried to stand up and you nearly felt again because you got so dizzy that you could just hold on to the wall.

,,Are you drunk?"

,,No Sevy what would gave you this idea? I'm todally fine Mrs. I am busy the whole day." you said and then you tried to walk away but you miserably failed. You almost fell again but he catched you. You were now in his arms and for a few seconds you had intense eye contact.

,,Let me go. I'm not drunk. Let me go I can walk by myself." you tried to free yourself but he was much stronger that you.

,,You cant walk by yourself, please let me help you y/n."

,,Let me go. Now. Dont touch me." and then he let go of you but you immediately fell. Now you layed on the floor and you started crying.

,,I am a nothing. I am just a freak that everybody despise and hate. Even my family does hate me." you looked up and saw that severus kneeled down next to you. You hugged him. He hugged you back, he knew you need this. Then he carefully lifted you up and you put your hands against his chest. You loved his smell. He carried you to his chambers beacause he knew it would be the best that no one knew that you were drunk. He wants to help and protect you from this cruel world and he failed that night.