Howling Marionette

Chapter 39

Tatlong pagpikit ng mga mata ay tanging dilim lamang ang nakikita magmula nang masagasaan ako. Wala ni kahit anong tunog, boses, o mga mukha ang nakikita ko, isang lugar kung saan dilim lamang ang yumayakap sa'kin.

Mama... I'm scared, please help me.

Papa? Mama?

I tried calling out their names, wanting to be save from this darkness. I don't want to be here, I want to go back. Someone... Please, save me.

I kept calling out for names, nilakad ang walang katapusang dilim upang makahanap ng tulong. Pilit tinatawag ang mga pangalang gusto kong makita.

Nasan ako? Bakit ako nandito? Ayoko dito!

Gusto kong magmakaawa na bumalik at mabuhay ulit, gusto kong makita ang mga magulang ko.

Ikalimang pagpikit sa dilim na walang katapusan at tanging ako lamang ang nanatiling liwanag.

Pagod nakong sumigaw at ipilit na mabuhay, eto ba ang sinasabi nilang kamatayan? Ang lugar kung saan lahat ng kaluluwa ay mananatili?

Kung ganon, gusto kong mabuhay. Ayokong manatili sa dilim, nakakatakot, nakakabahala, gusto kong umalis dito.

Kung bibigyan ako ng pagkakataong mabuhay, gusto kong mabuhay ng paulit-ulit hanggang sa mahanap ko sila.

Gusto kong pasalamat sila mama at papa.

"Is that your wish?"

Nakarinig ako ng boses mula sa kung saan, malamig, nakakakilabot, at makapangyarihan.

"60 lives will be given to you, but in exchange of granting my wish."

What wish? What is he saying? Hindi ko maintindihan.

"I want you to give me all your memories of your 60 lives."

"Why? Why do you want my memories instead of something better?" I asked softly.

"I want to have a memories of a mortal, I want to feel what it feels when you're on the earth's surface."

That's what he said and I agreed, I was desperate to escape the darkness. I was desperate to see them—my parents.

"If you stop your reincarnation, Ladon's wish would be granted and you will live inside the last body you reincarnated."

After that, I opened my eyes and found myself inside the body of a teacher. She was a married woman with a two kids and a lovely husband. She died because of the accident and I got reincarnated as her.

Her husband was the first one I saw, her memories together with the husband popped out and the last one was they got into a fight that caused her into an accident.

Her desire was to divorce with the husband. That's how my first reincarnation started, the first life I died because of being stabbed by her own child.

Remembering everything from the start, I wasn't that happy, but I was grateful meeting strangers in every dimensions.

Lahat ng mga taong nakasalamuha ko ay nagbigay sa'kin ng aral na kahit mawala man sila sa paningin ko mananatili silang memorya sa isip ko.

"I'm going to stepped back from being the heir of the Catastrope and also, I want to have all my expenses and cut ties with the Catastrope." That's what I told them.

The Duke's seems like he didn't like what I've said but he can't do anything. This is my life now, my last life so I will treasure it as much as I can before I die.

"What did I just hear? Are you rebelling to us Aurora? Are you still angry at me? It wasn't intentional—"

"I don't think you have the right to call me by my name madam, I only have one mother and you're not the one. After the things you've done to me, becoming a marionette with nothing to eat, do you still have conscience?" I asked coldly.

Her eyes widen with surprise when our eyes met. I'm so tired arguing with this woman, she's too hateful that I wanted to vomit.

"Aurora, are you really sure about this?" The Duke looks bothered and worried.

For all those times when Aurora cried in pain, this Duke didn't even bother looking at her. He pissed me off.

"I am sure about my decisions Duke, I will change my last name and will never go back to this house ever again."

"May I know the reason why? I know I've neglected you but cutting ties... Is just a bit, too much."

I let out a deep sigh. "I hate you and everyone living inside this house. Pretending to be a human when you can't even see me as a human, I was born with emotions, I was born as a human. Why can't you even recognize me as your daughter?"

His mouth trembled, unable to speak again. The two parents—no, the two unknown people wasn't able to speak loudly.

Wala na akong dapat sabihin pa, it's already done so I'm going now.

I was packing all my things when suddenly Melisa entered. Her eyes looks like she was about to cry, he's really a fox.

"Are you really leaving my lady?"

I zipped the large bag and put it on the bed before turning my head on her. "Yes."

"Can't I come with you?" she asked desperately.

"This might be too early for introduction but I know who you are and the deal you had with my step mother, but sorry to tell you this... I am not into you, I already have someone in my heart. I am not your Isabella and I will never be her," said as I left her being dumbfounded.

I must never let anyone get attached too me, I will be with myself.

"My Lady, are you really not going to ride the carriage?" The Knight asked.

Umiling ako at ngumiti. "Kaya ko na ang sarili ko, I will be going."

Sa isang pagkakataon ay nilingon ko ang malaking bahay habang pinipigilan ang floppy hat na liparin ng malakas na hangin.

Everything seems vivid, the nostalgic memories of Aurora inside the house are becoming blurry. It's done, your life has already been long gone Aurora.

This body, is already mine.

Goodbye...