Outlast fiction: Mrs.Gluskin

Chapter 23 Pink and orange

~Marie~

"What's the 'B' stand for?" I asked. She looked at me, then at the baby. "Beauregard" she said. The baby looked a little French like Ana, yet I still saw James through her light orange hair. I think I knew why Ana named the baby Autumn. Her red hair matched the colors of fall: red, orange, and brown. "What happened" I asked. She stood silent then she answered "James died and Eddie rescued you from the house.... You should get some sleep, Marie, the doctor gave you heavy medicine"

Suddenly, I felt dizzy like I was ready to pass out and throw up all at once. I looked at Ana and half of my vision started to blur. "Are you ok?" She asked . The world, my surroundings we're spinning in my eyes. "I'm fine" I said when really I wasn't. "Marie, are you sure? Cause you look like you're about to vomit" I looked at her trying to show her that I'm fine, I'm ok, that she didn't have to worry. I looked all around me, my vision was completely blurry. My legs, arms even hands started to give out and I lost my balance. I felt the cold, hard floor give me a wet kiss on the cheek. I couldn't move, I couldn't see, but I can hear and feel. The noises around me were full of panic and gasps. My skin felt the ground, I felt every movement and every foot step in my surrounding. "Let's get her to the bed" one nurse demanded. Suddenly, I heard heavy footsteps that I recognised, it was Eddie. I recognised his touch as he lifted me off the ground with his heavy, hard hands and laid me down on a soft, comfy surface. I felt his warm lips press against my temple, then felt his presence leave, then come again to hold my hand.

His hands were cold and soft, I felt his fingers comb my hair, it was relaxing. He stopped when the door opened, I heard the doctor's voice. "Ok, we got Marie's test results back. Everything seems fine, she's as healthy as a fox. She just has a few broken fingers and a wound, but those are already taken care of and..... Oh" she says and the room felt silent. "What's wrong?" Eddie said holding my hand tight yet gentle all at once.
"Congratulations, you're gonna be parents!" Once she said that Eddie could stop kissing my hands and cheeks and lips. "We're finally gonna make a family, Marie!" He whisperers to my hands.
"Well congratulations again, make sure she gets plenty of rest and call me back when she wakes up" the doctor says, then I hear the door slam. The room sounded like I was alone with Eddie. 'I wish Ana, Charlie, Faith or even Ruby was here right now with me' I thought

"Oh darling, I'm finally going to be a father, I knew you were the one. I knew we were meant to be" Eddie sounds real excited, good thing I don't have my eyes open and I can't move cause right now I feel like crying and running. "I promise, I will love you, respect you, protect you and our baby" then.... I couldn't hear and my mind went blank. I felt alone, scared and afraid but I tried to hide it. Darkness was all I saw. The true color of black is when you can't see. "Maria!" A girl's voice cried out, I didn't recognize it. "Maria! Help me, please!" When I felt my feet touch the ground, I began running in to no where except darkness. "Where are you!?" I shouted, the voice didn't respond but I kept running. Out of no where, I spotted a white light appearing in the darkness. "Maria! Maria!" The voice seemed to becoming from the light. The darkness became walls, and the walls formed a tunnel. When I got to the end, it was an open door of light. I looked back in to the darkness trying to figure out if I was going to heaven or hell, or that if this was the only way out. I walked through, not knowing what is on the other
side. I closed my eyes tight, then when I felt the feeling of calmness, I opened them. It was me, my own reflection. I appeared to be in a white, long wedding dress. The wrapped snug around my hips, giving me my natural hour glass shape. My hair was covered with a white veil as well as my face and all I saw were two red gorgeous eyes peering through the thin white veil. I was a bride again. When my own reflection, lifted the veil, I became frighten and scared.

My reflection was beautiful, but not elegant beautiful, It more dangerous, dark and horrific type of beauty. I looked down at myself, instead of wearing a hospital gown, I wore the same thing she was wearing. Confused and bewildered, I looked back at her. She pulled out a knife and gave me a creepy white smile. Then, out of no where, I saw Amy lying in a white bed and furniture, looking like a dead corpse. Her red flaming hair was pale as well as her face and lips. Amy's eyes were no longer a bright green, they looked
dead. "Maria, help" Amy plea poorly. My reflection walked over to Amy and held the knife directly above the neck, then lifted. "NOOOOOO" I shouted "AMYYY!!!" I tried to run towards them but I couldn't move as feet were glued to the floor. The knife slid Amy's throat, blood spilled all over the white beautiful dress and all over that beautiful, dark face. Those red eyes glared at me. I looked down at myself again, I was holding the knife, I was covers in Amy's blood. My hands started to shake, my eyes started to twitch. I was going mad, crazy, needed to pull my hair out of my head.

I screamed as loud as I can, the lights twitched off and on to my sound. Suddenly, I heard voices gather all around me. Voices I did not recognize, they all screamed at me all at once "SLUT! whore! cunt! BITCH! YOULL NEVER MAKE IT IN LIFE MARIA! THE WHOLE REASON WHY YOURE PARENTS LEFT YOU WAS BECAUSE THEY HATED YOU! YOU SHOULD KILL YOURE SELF!. THE WORLD WAS BETTER OFF WITH OUT YOU!" I cover my ears, still screaming "GO AWAY, LEAVE ME ALONE!" I was mentally ill. Sick in the head. I needed someone to hold me and keep me safe. I'm not strong and I'm tired of pretending that I am.

~Eddie~

I woke up to screaming. Marie looked like she was having a nightmare. Her heart monitor was beating like crazy. "GO AWAY! LEAVE ME ALONE!" She screamed and roared, balling herself in to a ball while covering her ears. I wrapped my arms around her, calming her down. "Marie, it's all right, it's ok" I patted her head, kissing her on her temple. When she finally woke up, she looked at me and buried herself in my chest, crying with little moans. "They were everywhere" she whispers. Marie was shaking with fear and covered in sweat. I laid down in the bed right next to her, holding her hands and stomach. "It's ok, I'll protect you from them" I whisper, not knowing who 'them' is. I kissed her on the forehead again then held her closer. I stared thinking about what genders and the characteristics of our child.
If it is a girl, I would like to name her after my grandmother 'Abigail'. She would be sweet as honey, with rosey cheeks and lips. She'll have her mother's beauty, of course. She will learn how to be a proper lady, filled with elegance and manner. Just like my grandmother. Now if it's a boy, then I would name him something, royal and strong like William, Oliver, or maybe Michael. He will have my handsome features, my good looks. He will be an automatic gentleman and I will teach him how to respect and treat women.

No matter what gender our baby is, I love it no matter what. My toes curled with excitement, I couldn't wait.

~Marie~

I felt eyes staring at me through the shadows of the walls, little whispers and noises tip toeing across the floor. I tried to close my eyes, hide my face behind the covers but I was still scared and frightened. Sweat dripped from scalp to my skin, along with goosebumps giving me chills. I still felt exhausted and powerless. Suddenly, a still gentle breeze entered the door and kissed me on the cheek. I opened my sweaty eyes, to only look at an illusion. It was Josef holding my hand. A calmness fell over me, "Hey beautiful" he says with a dashing smile. "Hey, you" I answered him back. "where have you been?"
"Oh, you know just looking over you" I can tell his was being flirty like always. Then I embraced with his hand. "I miss you" his says. "I miss you too, I'm going mad, crazy. I'm afraid, one day I'm gonna lose it and hurt somebody"
I start crying. "Marie.. I hate to see you struggling, you carrying all that pain and anger on your back. I wish.....I..I" he pauses for a moment, tears fill his brown eyes. "I wish I can hold you right now. I wish I hadn't done what I've done. I thought of myself first instead of you. It's all my fault, You had every right to kill me" I interrupted. "Josef, don't say that. I love you and in fact it should be my fault .... Josef, you were the only one in this world who can make me truly happy. You should me kindness when people didn't, you showed me love" a tear trail down my cheek "You took away all the pain from my childhood and turned it in to something beautiful" I felt my heart breaking again, only this time more painful. There was nothing but silence in the room. Suddenly, Josef stood up kissed me on the forehead straight for the door. He paused and a looked at me, giving me a that same dashing white smile. Then left.

I didn't want him to leave. Soon all my energy came back from that one kiss. I sat up, getting out of bed and rushing after him. He was down the hall all the way at the end. I started running, each step I took seem to be pulling me much closer to him, but in reality I was a million miles away. When I saw Josef, he went straight out into the clear, windowed door. By the time I reach the door, the sunrise had risen and Josef disappeared it to the sunset, becoming nothing but light. I stayed looking the pink and orange sun rising to greet the blue sky. It looked beautiful, the way the pink and orange is mixed with the clouds and blue sky, it's
almost like looking at the gate of heaven.

I sat down at a nearby table and laid my head against my arm looking at the sunrise.