𝑨 𝑳𝒊𝒕𝒕𝒍𝒆𝒔 𝑭𝒆𝒂𝒓

열

I consumed the last bit of my meal and proceeded to head over to my studio. It was nice, almost refreshing, being back in this place. My studio takes a second home to me, staying in it for such long periods, it's hard not to think that, also, being aware of how long I stayed away from it, a homesick feeling definitely crept up on me.

I sat down and started to work on arranging the chords within the song, as well as the audio bits that have already been pre-recorded and saved. I wanted Carats to love this song as much or more than all other comebacks we've produced so far, and that was my main motivation.

I worked on it for a while forgetting about all the troubles, Just focusing on my work already closing by completing the comeback, however, one of the only things that should have been happening where practicing the song a bit more since the teaser already had been dropped about 2weeks ago and Carats was were waiting and making a ruckus sometimes people are so impatient, so am I occasionally.

After a while, the others entered the room to listen to the complete project we all were pleased and ended up practice the last two weeks, however, I felt bad about the fact I didn't practice for about a month and a half since I was perfecting the audios for the album I'm a bit of a perfectionist if it comes to seventeen's music.

After all of us entered the practice room and had stretched we began our practice routine, however, time passed quicker than it usually does. Before any of us could've expected, 2 weeks of practicing had already flown by. Before we left Hoshi, Jeonghan and I had to wake up everyone else as we finally had posted the official MV we had planned as a part of our schedule.

Soon enough all of us sat in a van driving towards the countdown stage even though we had performed multiple it time yet somehow it still scared me often and most of the time my mind wandered to the question"why did I choose this life" to put it easy I was scared and about to slip in the worst time ever.

"Woozi, you okay" I heard Jeonghan asked a slightly turned around and shook my head as I wasn't okay I wanted to slip and was forcing myself not to the elder had wrapped his arms around me trying to calm me down, Even if Jeonghan tried his best to calm me down, it wasn't working in the slightest, out of the fact that his helping was making the attack worse. I wasn't huge on hugging out of being a little and especially in public and even in a car, which made it hard for people to "help" me with an attack as anything they'd try to do ended up causing me to be uncomfortable.

Trying to push Jeonghan telling him to let go of me which he didn't listen I tried to tell him to stop meanwhile, the others were asleep or had earbuds around not knowing what was going on I couldn't help but notice how everything was spinning around and collapsing upon me until I finally give and fainted so the attack stopped taking away the power I should have on stage.

After waking up again I wasn't surprised that we already were
the countdown stage show for our come backstage and I was suspiciously already in the right clothes I frowned and stood up looking in the makeup mirrors that were in front of me to see that I already wore makeup as well I was confused, of course, I'd be I just woke up for fainting cause thoughts I needed to help me calm down how dare he make it worse, the dick.

Now, it wasn't the best time to start holding a grudge, I'm about to perform the comeback stage with the group in just a few minutes and I have to perform the best I can for all the Carats that have been waiting for so long. I tried the best I could to not think about much more and confuse myself any more than I already had, suddenly S.coups came in and looked at me soon enough he led me to the stage and placed me in my position I relaxed as much a possible.

Nevertheless, in the middle of the performance, I suddenly fell into middle space I wasn't little nor was I fully big, panicking as I felt a glance of Vernon walk over my back which stressed me out, even more, it was so embarrassing I just wished that I evaporated that moment.

When the performance ended I ran as fast as I could to where my feet brought me, which was the van surprisingly, sitting down in the van I waited until Vernon sat down next to me.

"Hyung, what's the matter?" I heard ringing bolt through my ears and couldn't help but start tearing up and crying as I couldn't handle it anymore. I simply fell into Vernon's arms, slipping into my headspace somewhat quickly. I heard Vernon coo quietly before he rocked me like a baby as he patted my back benevolently, After a bit, I calmed down closing my eyes slowly while I held closely on Vernon.

"Baby, why are you so stressed?" Vernon softly asked as I clung into him more smuggling closer slightly shaking with Adrenaline that still ruched through my body, regardless I suddenly realized it asked me why I was "Stressed" how did he know that that could be a factor in slipping into little space had he done research on it.

Before I could get an answer in the other came and sat down next to Vernon and tried to get on his lap I didn't butch and held onto Vernon as that wanted my little side wanted so did my big side which wasn't too new as Vernon and THE8 where and are the only one where I feel a 100 percent comfortable with even though I'm not a fan of hugging, cuddling well practically everything that I consider as skinship.