dissociate

7 1 0
                                    


I spent an hour on the floor
my eyes more doughnut than body
pointed to the light on the ceiling
it blurred in and out
mostly out

my senses shut down
I couldn't taste my unsteady breath
or feel my nails dig into my ribs
or hear any of the times they called me

I finally was pulled back in
to a terrifying reality
they lifted me off my back
but I stayed on the floor a bit

I hope they didn't see the
salt roll down my cheeks
I wiped it quickly
the only sign of
my craving for nonexistence

Brain DumpWhere stories live. Discover now