Crashing Hard

At last ~ 25

I didn't wake up screaming or crying. I didn't wake up panicked that I was still there. I woke up calm, it was almost unnatural. A calm that was almost foreign to my adult life. Jong was still sleeping besides me. I kind of felt bad because I know I kept him up a little later than I should have with my worries. I wanted to sleep more too. I felt so tired yet so awake. I had no more melatonin even if I wanted to go back to sleep. A headache was starting to form from my sleepiness or maybe from staying up late and waking up earlier.

"Go back to bed" Jong grumbled in his sleep voice.

"I'm sorry did I wake you? I can't go back to sleep"

"Lay down and close your eyes."

I laid as carefully as I could but it felt awkward. I tried to lay as still as I could and closed my eyes, but I just couldn't go back to sleep.

"You're not doing it right"

"What do you mean you? I'm trying to sleep"

"Maybe if you didn't lay still like a blowup doll you could sleep. Get comfortable and close your eyes"

He really just said that to me. A BLOWUP DOLL!  Really?! Okay in all honesty it was kind of funny but I wasn't going to give him the satisfaction of me laughing. I rolled onto my stomach with my leg propped up and got comfortable. I felt sleepier immediately. Jong reached over and rubbed my back making me ten times sleepier. Within 5 minutes of him rubbing my back I was sleeping. A calm and deep sleep that wasn't plagued by nightmares.

We ended up waking up at 2pm. Eric had gone to Wendy's and brought us some food. Surprisingly he knew how I liked my hamburgers which was a little creepy but also nice. I felt like a big baby. Getting my back rubbed until I fall asleep then being brought food and taken care of.

What's wrong you don't like the food?" Eric asked from my doorway.

"It's not that. I love the food. It's just.... I feel like a child."

"Oh. What's wrong with being a child. They get treated awesomely!"

"Some of them. Others get parents or guardians who couldn't care less about them"

"So do you not want me to give you food?"

"No it's not that I appreciate the food. I'm sorry for sounding ungrateful! Forget what I said."

"Only if you eat all your food. Then I'll forget what you said. If not I'm telling Jong what you said and he'll scold you."

Oooh I just wanna wipe that snarky smirk off his face. I'll finish all my food AND I'll tell Jong he tried to blackmail me. We'll see who gets in trouble now haha. I started eating as quickly as I could when Jong walked in. I had a mouth full of food and a look on my face like I was caught doing something I shouldn't have been doing.

"Stop stuffing your mouth! You could choke on your food and die. " Jong scolded me.

"Eric tried to blackmail me!" I said accusingly. Eric rounded the corner to come into my doorway again.

"Gasp I would never do something like that to you. What are you even talking about gurl." He replied giving me a confused look.

"What did he try to blackmail you about?"

"Oh nothing serious" I totally screwed myself.

"Eric? What did you try to blackmail her about?" Jong questioned.

Eric looked at everything in the room except Jong. He looked at me and started making face at me. Pointing and laughing at me cause I screwed myself over.

"Iliza said she feels like that child" Eric gave me another snarky look. I took the closest pillow and tried to throw it at him. Lucky for him it missed.

"Iliza? Do you feel like that"

"No"

"Gurl don't like you know you do" Eric commented walking away.

"Iliza? If you feel like this I need to know why so I can do something to fix it" Jong say besides me with a worried look.

"The food and the back rubs and being taken care of just makes me feel like a kid" I looked down feeling bad.

Jong started in a low laugh that continually got louder. I looked straight up at him and my eyes started tearing up. Was he laughing at me?

"I'm sorry but this is funny. Hun you just don't know what it's like to be treated like a queen yet. This is just the start of it I'm going to take care of you. Sorry if you feel like a child but I'm just trying to take care of you."

He finally calmed down enough to stop laughing and his face softened.

"I'm gonna show you how you should be treated. Whether you understand this feeling or not I'm going to make sure you feel loved unconditionally. I don't want you to question your feelings or mine. If you feel some kind of way just tell me so I can fix it. I'll try not to baby as much but I still need to spoil you a little bit." Jong spoke softly.

"Okay I'm sorry I sounded ungrateful"

"No need to be sorry hun you just didn't know why you were getting spoiled a little. Hopefully you raise your expectations, and let me treat you like the queen you are." He smiled at me.

Oh that smile could break hearts or it could heal them. I feel like I can trust him and he's right I deserve to be treated like a queen. I will try my best to treat him like a king. I'm so happy I met someone who is like him. He's going out of his way just to make sure I'm taken care of and that I'm happy. I appreciate him and everyone else that I've met because of a stupid accident.