Demon Slayer X Reader Oneshots [COMPLETED]

[008] Gyomei Himejima

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just dont belong
And no one understands you.
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"You don't belong here, we just adopt you. And we will never, ever accept garbage like you in our family," my so called mother said as she cut my long hair and tore my kimono I was wearing. "You can use her now," my mother said as the son of the village chief came in and stared at my body with his disgusting lustful eyes.

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Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room
With the radio on, turned up so loud
That no one hears you're screaming?
-

After he used my body for his selfish desires, he paid my mother a great amount of money for taking my virginity. For being a 15 year old lady, I feel that I lost my dignity, that I am dirty and a useless whore. "Continue this, at least, garbage like you can be useful," my 'mother' said as she left me and locked me inside  the room.

And those days of being  a comfort woman became, weeks and weeks became  months until it reached years.

Also, 5 years have come. I'm 20, yet, still inside the cage seeking freedom. They will beat me up and make me a tool for the village chief's son's desires. A night came and I saw an opportunity ....

An opportunity to end my trashy life.

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No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
-

I successfully escaped and ran to the forest as fast as I could. Where the moonlight can be bright fully. So young to die but I won't regret even when I landed in hell.

All of a sudden, obviously, a demon came. I feel so numb that I can't even feel anything, none. No fear, no sadness, no gut to even beg. I just wanted to die.

"You're not afraid?" the demon asks me and I just chuckled fakely. "I'm on my way to commit suicide but since you're here. You can just kill and devour me." I said bluntly.

He dashed towards me and suddenly backed off, "So desperate to die, huh?" he asks as he dashed again and used his sharp nails to scratch me, badly.

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To be hurt, to feel lost
To be  left out  in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
-

I was near to death when a certain person attacked  the demon and  the demon took his way out. A smiling girl approached me, having a bun and  a butterfly tie in her hair, a black hair and purple tip on the end. "J-just, j-just let m-me d-die" I said and her smile faded away because of the shock.

But instead of killing me, they cured and treated  me. I woke up but my soul wasn't. My body was awake but my mind is dead. My tears are alive but not my emotions.

I always wanted  to kill myself but they're always there  to stop me and I find it annoying. I used my blanket to kill myself and I tied  it in the ceiling. I stepped on the chair and  put my neck on it. I stopped because the door opened. I hurried to kill myself but Aoi was able to grab my kimono.

"[Name]-chan!" Aoi said and tried to pull me but I kicked her. "Shinobu-san!!" Aoi yelled as Shinobu and  Gyomei pulled me down and held me up but I kept on resisting.

"[Name]! Stop already!" Shinobu yelled as she was holding my hand. "I'm tired- I can't ... I can't live  with this  burden. Enough, just let me die already!" I yelled in pain as I kept on resisting.

Suddenly, large arms took my body and pulled me into a hug. "You wanted to die, while the others wanted to live and enjoy life."  he said but I don't care.

"I don't ca-" I was cut off when Shinobu injected me something. "I'm sorry," she  said as I lost my consciousness.

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To be on the edge of breaking down
And  no one's there to save
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my Life
-

With the encouragement to live, I was able to cop up. But not fully, I always had that dream and  woke  up in the middle of the night panting, panicking and  crying over the past. In every yell, I will tremble. Every guy I don't recognize looks like the one who took over me. Shinobu said  that it was trauma, so, Oyakata-sama decided to be  Gyomei's tsugoku along with Genya. He's not shouting if I'm around and behaving just as fine. Gyomei is also there to comfort me when I need it. I was able to cop but everything fell apart because ....

"[Name]?" Gyomei asks as I tighten my grip in his haori. "I-it's them, it's them, G-gyomei!"  I said almost tearing up. As well as the other hashira  noticed it.

The nightmares that made me feel disgusting are here, in the  butterfly estate. Both of them were heading towards us.

"I'm gonna take my daughter home." my so-called mother pulled my arm but I took it from her and built up my courage  to talk. "I-I'm not y-your daughter!" I yelled and I could notice her irritation.

And then, the village chief's son took my arm. "Let's go home." he said. But  then, someone pulled  my other hand and Gyomei made me hug him by taking me over from their pulls.

"I won't let it, she's obviously rejecting it." Gyomei said.

"All of us knew what you did"- Shinobu

"How unflamboyant"- Uzui

"15? Forcefully? She didn't want to be yet you did that!" Mitsuri said.

"If you want to insist, all hashiras standing in front of you will fight for her." Rengoku said.

They drove  them away to leave me alone. I'm trembling, sobbing and panicking at the  same time. Gyomei let me stay with him in his estate and will check on me. His room is just in front of mine.

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To be hurt, to feel lost
To be  left out  in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And  no one's there to save
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my Life
-

"[Name] calm down" Gyomei said as he pulled  me in and  gave me another  hug as  cried all of  it out. "W-what if- what if  they-" he  cut me off by leaning in and hugged me.

I just looked at him, "Calm down. I'll be  here and protect you no matter what." he said as  soon as he broke off the hug, hands on my waist and looking directly at my eyes. "I love you".

"B-but, I c-cant't give you anything. All of those were-" I said as  he cut me off again, "I don't care about your past. I love you because  of the way you are and the person you've been. I don't care what you were in the past. What matters is, do you feel the same?"

I teared up and hugged him, "I-I do." I said as he hugged back, ruffled my hair, kissed my forehead and ended up sleeping together.

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When I look in your eyes I see my life. I want to be your everything, I’ll always stay by your side
°°・。

This has the least error so far
But whatttttt
That's so sad
Did I really write that?
Edited~