Bojack horseman x reader

Memories and dreams

(This'll need character explanations

Todd- Bojack
Bojack-todd
Mr peanutbutter- Diane
Diane- Mr peanutbutter

*horsin around characters*
Olivia- Ollie
Ethan- Emma
Sabrina- Sal

Y/ns POV:

I sit on the couch with Todd

He's drinking alcohol and watching Todding around on the TV

It was a weird show where Todd played the star his name there was "man" and there was three horses living with him two boys and a girl

Ollie,
Emma
And the youngest Sal

The show felt weird like it was meant to be made different but who cares

Bojack comes out of his room at the end of the hall, he was wearing a red hoodie and a yellow beanie

"Gooodd morning everyone! I won't be in today I have to go and meet up with Diane, she bought tons of spaghetti strainers and we're making a Fort of them" Bojack happily skipped out of the door as Todd grumbled and leaned back on the couch

"Uh hey..Todd how's things going?" I asked not sure I that was his name in this weird universe dream thing

"Shitty. Now if you wouldn't mind I'm running out of beer and my credit card is on my dresser sooo" He takes a swing of alcohol and coughs

"That's too much man!"
A small boy on the TV says as Todd starts groaning and passes out on the couch

I stare at him for a minute before going and getting his credit card
"Today is about me"

I smile and take his car keys too and leave the house with todding around blaring inside

I get into the car and end up driving around for an hour or two going no-where I guess I just wanted to drive around

I clutch my head as I get a horrible headache and almost crashed crashed car

"Watch the road dumbass!" Some fatass old lady yells from her window with her middle finger up

I throw an old coffee that was sitting in the car and it hits her face as she ends up crashing into a toy store

Some kids run out of the store and start jumping on her like a trampoline

I smile and keep driving trying to ignore my headache, to take my mind off it I decide to go to the fair in town

When I got there nobody else was there,it was like a deserted place like no-one else existed at all

All the booths were up but they were damp and the colours were faded it seemed all the machines were broken..except one

It was a fortune telling machine I put in some money into the coin slot and lights started going off

A small ball fell out and I opened it, it was hard to open as if it was sealed with glue

When I opened it the inside was dark red and wet, it smelt kinda like blood but I shrugged it off

The message there said

"It's all your fault and remember that"

What a weird message, what was my fault?

Lots of memories flashed in my head

The time I first met bojack
The time I got so high and drunk
That weird time we slept together
When we got caught together
When I met Diane
When I met Mr peanutbutter
When I almost died
The time I...PUSHED BOJACK INTO HIS FUCKING POOL AND OH SHIT HES PROABABLY DEAD YOU DUMBASS AND YOU FORCED TODD TO DO IT WITH YOU KNOW YOUR BOTH GOING TO PRISON AND ITS YOUR FAULT YOU STUPID FUCKING BITCH YOU RUIN EVERYTHING

I start crying as thoughts fill my mind and I turn around to leave but I see bojack in the car

"It's all your fault bitch..."

The car launches forward and the headlights blind me, but there was no pain?? When did it turn to nighttime all of a sudden?

Why was I back in the pool at bojacks?

At the bottom of the pool looking up to see myself laughing down at me

I'm so confused what's happening and why

Memories rewind in my head over and over everybody choice that lead to here

WhywhywhywhywhyWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYME

IM FUCKING DYING AND I CANT FUCKING STOP IT

ITS LIKE AN ENDLESS PIT OF DARKNESS AND PAIN

everything's dark here...

No light,No emotion, no colour, no nothing

That's life and no one can avoid it

It's a dark hollow pit that swallows you whole with no mercy

There's no escape other than death and that's permanent

No going back after you can't no matter how much you regret it after you can't just go back...Right?