Poems for Her

if i was your past

How i wish
i was your first love

so you didn't have
to cry each night and
question your self-worth

How i wish
i was your first crush

so i will notice you
and show you the reasons
why you deserve to be loved

How i wish
i was a serendipity that
used to happen from your past

so you won't have to
worry about today 'cause
i'll be the first—i'll be the last

And i'm sorry
'cause it turns out
the other way around

I was too late and all i can
do for now—is to help you
pick up your broken pieces
from the ground

I have to wait
a little more longer
for you to heal and patch up
your drastic wounds

And i know that it ain't easy
but i'll be here waiting
even if it takes a million poems.

12 July 2021

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