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➳ALICIA

Since Luke left my world began to fall apart. I've had the urge to cut more than ever, and I'm giving into my demons. Luke hasn't talked to me, and I hate it.

I had to go back to my normal life going to school not spending every waking moment with Luke. I felt lonelier than ever, only leaving the house for school. I knew it might just be a couple of days but it felt like forever, its slowly killing me.

Adam has been concerned about me constantly ringing me and texting me. I just wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone apart from Luke who never replied anymore. I couldn't help but constantly have the feeling to cry every moment someone brings up anything to do with anything related to Luke, it was like I was stuck in a world where everything moved on apart from me and I was just left still caught up with Luke while he was living his life in the present.

"Alicia?" A voice said.

I looked up in confused then remembered I was sat in a science class. I heard the class laughing at me, saying things which I chose to ignore.

"Y- yes?" I stuttered.

"Can you answer question four?" My teacher asked, a frown on her face.

"N-no, I didn't get that far." I replied almost whispering.

She tsked me but asked someone else. My mind diverted me to Tumblr, I hadn't been on it for what felt like ages.

I sat through the rest of my lessons not saying anything, not wanting to bring attention to myself. Fortunately the teachers didn't asked me any questions and left me alone.

I was anxious to get home so I could check Tumblr and see if Luke had been on that and was ignoring me.

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I practically ran home after school and straight into my bedroom. I quickly changed into a t shirt that Luke left behind, a pair of legging and put my hair in a messy bun. I pulled my Mac onto my bed and brought up Tumblr.

As I was looking through some posts I saw one of mine which I had tagged Luke in and clicked on his username.

User not found.

Has Luke deleted Tumblr? Why? I felt my heart fall apart, the thing we met on he deleted. I felt tears fill my tears and I didn't even try to stop them, I just let the fall. I ended up crying about everything that had happened recently. Luke leaving, Luke not answering anything, Luke practically forgetting me, and Luke deleting Tumblr; Luke. I was actually crying over a boy. I normally read in Harry fan fictions when Harry leaves them for some other girl, but I didn't think I'd actually be crying over one.

My Dad came in half an hour later and saw me curled up hugging the jacket Luke gave me. He sat down on the bed next to me and just gently stroked my hair.

"Ice cream?" He asked instantly knowing. I just nodded my head in agreement.

He got and left only to come back a few minutes later with a tub of Ben and Jerry's Phish Food and a spoon. He gave it to me after I sat up and then he sat down next to me.

"I need to talk to you about something." He burst out.

"Okay?" I said quietly.

"You know I know you aren't okay, I want you to get help." He told me.

"Wait, what?" I asked scared.

"Therapy." He answered.

"What? I don;t want therapy, I don't need therapy!" I practically yelled.

"You have no other choice." He simply stated shrugging his shoulders.

I can't have therapy, that will just confirm my pathetic life.

I got up and grabbed my Converse before running towards the front door, I slipped my shoes on the carried on running down the steps of my apartment. I decided to go to the coffee shop, my favourite place in New York.

When I arrived I rang Adam and asked him to meet me here. I sat in the same window seat as I did with Luke and ordered a drink. Soon Adam came running in dripping with rain, and came straight towards me.

"Lissy are you okay?" He puffed as he sat down.

I shook my head not knowing what to say.

"What's happened? Is it Luke?" He asked confused.

"Yes, but therapy, my Dad wants me to get therapy." I finally said.

He looked shocked but reached over and wrapped his arms around me. He just rubbed his hand up and down my back as I shakily cried into his chest.

"Shh Lissy it's okay." He soothed. He put my hair behind my ears and looked me in the eyes. It didn't feel right. None of it felt right, I should be with Luke not crying over him and the fact I have to go to Therapy.

"What's happened with Luke?" He asked concerned.

"He's not spoken to me since he left a- and he deleted his Tumblr. I want him back." I wailed unable to control myself.

We ended up staying in the coffee shop till closing time, me not wanting to see my Dad or be alone. Adam was happy to stay with me the whole time just making me laugh and smile.

I'm lucky to have him.

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I'D LIKE TO DEDICATE THIS CHAPTER TO_CarrotsForLouis_ FOR ALWAYS HELPING ME AND BEING AWESOME, YOU SHOULD READ HER BOOK :)))))))

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