anime angst

How could you? shinkami/shinmono

now don't get me wrong, I love shinkami, I am a whore for it, but i also like shinmono... and I like angst.. and thats what this book is about *scary smirk* 

!! TW: Overdosage !!

    Its been two weeks since I saw something I really didn't want to. Shinsou and Monoma were kissing. I don't know the full story, but I saw it again today. 

~flashback~

    I was walking to my boyfriend, Shinsou's dorm room for a surprise movie night. As I'm skipping through the hallways with a bunch of snacks and dvds in my arms, I finally make way near his dorm. I was so excited! Except... he always has his door closed. It's never left open like that. 

    I decide to peek through the tiny sliver between the door and the door frame and I saw something I couldn't forgive. Monoma was laying on top of Shinsou, while making out with him. I decided to go back to my dorm and have a movie night by myself. I couldn't help but think though. 

'am I not good enough for him?! Shinsou wouldn't cheat on me.. right? he's loyal like me, right??' 

    These thoughts were swarming my head for a while. I decided to text the bakusquad to see if they wanted to have a movie night with me instead. 

[in conversations with : boom boom boi, pinky, flex tape, rock hard, and ears for days]

pika pika:

Hey guys!!

boom boom boi:

What do you want pikachu?

rock hard:

Hey bro 

pinky:

hiiiii kaminariiii

flex tape:

wassup

ears for days:

sup

pika pika:

I was wondering if u wanted to have a movie night at my dorm tonight?

boom boom boi:

sorry but me and shitty hair have a date. 

rock hard:

yeah sorry bro

ears for days:

sure momos visiting home tonight so why not

flex tape:

sure man

pinky:

YESSS BESTIEEE OFC

pika pika:

k see u guys in a few?

    It was too bad that Kiri and Bakugo couldn't come, but that was okay. I slowly got up and went to the bathroom to clean myself up a bit, as I had been crying.  When I walked back into my room I saw Mina and Jirou sitting on the ground talking while Sero sat on my bed looking around like he hasn't been here before.

I smiled lightly. "I kinda regret giving you guys a spare key.." We laughed it off and spent the rest of the night watching movies. 

...

    I found myself crying in my room again after they left. 

I was whispering : "how could you, how could you. how could you! ". 

    Mina came back into my room to grab her pillow and saw me crying. She approached me and sat next to me, hugging me and telling me it was okay. I love that about Mina. Whenever something bad happens and someone is crying, before she even knows about whats happening she will try and make it okay. 

   I ended up telling her about everything that had happened and she was furious. She told me to confront him about it. So thats what I did. 

~end of flashback~

   Here I was, standing over my sink with my ADHD medications in my hand. I confronted Shinsou about him kissing Monoma earlier today, and he said that he was forced into it. Of course I believed him, because when your in a relationship you're supposed to trust each other. I was walking to his dorm again, for the same reason as before, but I saw shinsou on top of Monoma, making out with him. 

   My eyes started tearing up again. Now here I am. I had seven of my pills in my hand. with one swift movement, I swallowed them all. I felt nothing at first. Then a wave of nausea hit me. I felt really dizzy, and I hit the floor. Next thing I knew, there was a man with a purple blob on his head, yelling...

"HOW COULD YOU!!"

and then, I blacked out. 

okay so this one is shorter than the last one but took me an hour less to make so yey *sad boi noises* hope yall enjoyed!